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2002-08-02 13:51:00 Trying this new LiveJournal thing - well new to me,This is a test to see if i fucked up anything 2002-08-05 14:04:00 Things that suck: (and not in the good, eyes rolling back in your head, all over body shuddering kinda way) Computers. My Stuidity - to be playing a game during a storm hence frying my video card and having to reinstall winblows XP. All my files are still there but nothing is linked and so nothing works. Arg. Now I need to find a way to save all my mail to a CD and somehow export it back into Outlook when i format and re-reinstall winblows. hehe i like this livejournal thing. 2002-08-05 10:38:00 Monday again So this past weekend was rather exciting. It was the opening for my one act, Dictionary Guy, and it all went really well. We had a sold out crowd on opening night. That was about 100 people crammed into the small chapel of the Cedar Lane Unitarian Church. Now this was by no means a religious play but that is just the space that is used. But man was it hot. I thought I was going to die. Sky, this cute guy from one of the other one acts, asked me if someone poured a bottle of water down my back. I said no, I was just sweating like a whore in a police raid. Well I have never been in a police raid, but anyway. It all went really well and the writer of the play, who happens to be the director's brother in law, was there and said that we did a great job. That made me happy. I love having accolades thrown at me. Also on Saturday my friends Jen, Matt and I went to Olney MD, I have no idea where this place is and I have lived here for 13 years, to see a play called The Laramie Project. It was the same production that was made into a movie a little bit back and shown on HBO. Anyway, this was such a good production. I laughed and I cried. And cried some more. Just when I thought I wasn't going to cry I would do it again. But the premise of the play is that a bunch of New York actors went to Laramie Wyoming after the Mathew Sheppard murder and interviewed lots of people and took there dialogs and made it into a play. The actors were phenomenal. I was truly amazed. The one unexpectedly funny moment was when one of the actors was talking, the cute kid who went to college on a scholarship, and he was talking about his role in Macbeth..the power went out in the theatre. Sure there happened to be a huge storm outside but every actor knows never to mention the word Macbeth while on stage cause it's bad luck. The power never came back on but they finished the play with flashlights and when the kid said the line again Macbeth was referred as 'the Scottish play.' It was really funny. I also ran into my ex RJ and his new fiancée. She was really nice and cute. On thursday previous we were all at Nations doing the Goth Industrial thang and I ran into a friend I had not seen in years. We went to High School together and then hung out for years afterwards then I kinda broke off from them for some reason. I think moving to VA may have done that, I dont recall. But she married one of our friends and now I really want to get back in touch with these friends again, catch up on old times. Thats it for now. Do people like this new livejournal journal or the other one? 2002-08-06 10:30:00 blah I have no idea why I am so perky today. I can't sit still, I can't concentrate on work I just want to go outside and play. I think it because today is the first day in ages where it's actually nice outside. There is this rad breeze coming off the water and it was so hard to turn in the gate today to go to work. Arg. So last night were the auditions for Museum. This is the next play at the Cedar Lane Stage where I am currently doing the one acts. Its an interesting play about a museum and the people who walk through this exhibit. It doesn't sound like all that much but it is really neat. There were a bunch of people there last night and two people that I knew, one from the Rude Mechanicals and one from another of the one acts. Rick is in a one act called 'I'm the Bride', which he isn't of course, but we had a really good time talking and we did a few scenes together. I hope he gets it cause he is really fun to work with and would be fun to hang with for the next two months and he's cute so there would be something fun to look at. 2002-08-07 10:07:00 Hmmmm Well, I got a callback from the auditions the other day. Its not the part that I wanted but it will be nice all the same. I'm feeling strangely dejected. I feel that I did a really good job for the part that I wanted....but oh well. I am still happy to be a hopeful part of something. Now I have to read the rest of the of the script cause what I saw performed was really funny stuff. I wonder if Rick got a callback... Enough of that, don't want to jinx anything. And last night I went out and spent money I didn't have. I had to go to Best Buy and pick up another NIC card just in case my mother fucking lazy bitch ass of a roommate can get off Ever Quest and fix the network. Whew, I'm better now. Anyway, I had to pick up Lord of the Rings on DVD. God damn this is a good movie. I was watching it again and there is just so much about it that is amazing. There are no flaws to this movie in my eyes and I was looking for stuff last night. I just think it is a perfect movie. I'm horny. 2002-08-08 09:33:00 phpppppppt Oh the money woes. I think I have found a way to get back on my feet n regards to money. Course this will mean that for the next 5 years I won't be able to do anything fun, ever. Well its not that bad but t's pretty close, but since I got myself into this mess I have to pay the consequences. Dammit. 2002-08-09 17:53:00 Tool So I have been thinking, a dangerous past time I know, and I wonder if I am actually a tool of Satan. Today my purchase at 7-11 was $6.66. And since that little before coffee freak out I have had a pretty good day. I got slammed with work but it was all good work and fun to do. People have still pissed me off but instead of wanted to jam my bare hand into their chest and rip out their heart, I let it slide off. I also tend to have great days on Friday the 13ths. It's odd really. But I have been told that I am odd as well so maybe it's a perfect match. Hmmm. My ass itches. And looking at that paragraph and seeing all the references to movies, I wonder also if I am capable of any truly original thought or just puking up other people's dialogue. I need to leave work. Yes that's the answer. 2002-08-09 09:38:00 Word of the day: stiffy So its a beautiful Friday, I don't want to be here, and I'm horny as all get out. Truly, I'm actively looking for duct tape to tape down my pecker. No this isn't the usual me, I'm even more off kilter than I was. AND it doesn't help that they are having a graduation upstairs and the building is full of hot military men. I actually just got a shiver. Kinda like a piss shiver without the piss. Interesting... Anyway I also parked next to the other fag in the building that I know of but wasn't able to have to a conversation cause I was in a hurry to get in the building ... for some reason. I love coffee. 2002-08-10 10:19:00 Holy Fucking Shit. Okay so I just got a phone call from the director of this play I auditioned for on Monday and he said that I had the role of The Guard. Which, though it doesn't sound like it, is the LEAD ROLE. I am so jazzed and nervous and excited and god knows what else. This is SO cool. The play is called Museum and will be going up in October. AIGH! I am so excited. 2002-08-11 01:27:00 Well the second to the last night of the play went really well I think. Again we had a sold out house, that equates to about 100 people, and they were fairly responsive. Part of the fun of being an actor and being in a show is seeing where people laugh each time. It's also fun have to wait for the laughter to die down before you are able to continue. And the other shows seemed to be really good as well. Still don't know if Ric is gay and am still trying to find a way to ask so that I have another compadre in the theatre. I seem to have the amazing talent of finding no other bisexual/gay people in the troupes that I act in. Go fig. After that I met some friends at a party. I think it was a house w arming party though I am not sure. It was ... interesting. Plenty of too tan girls and lots of bad fashion. Now I'm not saying that I am the king of dressing well but some of these people were just trying way too hard and wearing outfits that should only be worn on people 30 pounds lighter. Eventually there were these two goths that showed up which gave me people to talk too. They were a nice change from the other folks there. And dear god there were so many loud obnoxious straight people that is was insane. Now I dont have a problem with straight people or parties and I know gay people get loud and obnoxious as well, and I can't stand them either, but there were people walking around spilling the drinks and screaming at octives that were out of control. Ugh. Hermit is a good lifestyle. I miss my computer. This is my roommates computer and he assures me that we will have the wireless cable connection up in a few days. I miss my porn. 2002-08-12 16:13:00 zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz*snort*zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz so i am so tired today. it hasn't gotten better and I also have this wanting to beat people around the head and neck. mostly the fat, slothy ones that eat popcorn all day and trudge through the hallways. can't stand these people. arg. insert red hot poker into ass. go i'm so bored i can't even be creative. listening to The Epoxies. Cool stuff 2002-08-12 10:38:00 Is that a kink in your neck or are you trying to look up my skirt? So I like totally slept wrong and now have the biggest, more painful kink in my neck and no matter which way I move, I hurt. And my allergies are going into overdrive. I ain't having a good day. *snort* Last night was the last night of the one act and I think it went really well. My friends that were there said it went really well. I wish I were able to judge my performance better but once I leave the stage it all goes blank. Very odd. Now my head hurts. I wonder if's a tumor. Then after the play a bunch of us went to Bennigan's, is this the only place the people go after theatre? We had some food and stuff and chatted a while. Everyone kept asking me if I was dating my friend Kelley. Literally like 5 people asked if we were dating. And my friend Jen says that everyone knows I'm gay... HA! :-) And I think my co-actor has a crush on me. Interesting. Haven't dated a girl in a few years.... Tonight is the first night of rehearsals for Museum. I'm nervous and excited to have the lead. heheh I need more coffee. And I vicadin. And some whiskey.... 2002-08-13 12:40:00 I hate you, I love you, i hate you So I took my car into the shop today to get the window fixed and they fixed it for free! Saved me $450. I don't know why and I don't care. I'm just very happy. I also think I need to name my car. It's just been such a bitch for these three years that it's seemingly taken a life of it's own so I feel like I should name it. Any suggestions? Rehearsal rocked. Well it was actually a read through of the script. Not everyone was there but the majority of folks were and it went really well. Sort of a bummer is that since I am in every scene, I have to be at every rehearsal. But it's a very funny script and I can't wait to get into it and start blocking and all. I love marines. Who run shirtless. In the heat. Glistening with sweat. my head hurts still. So does my throat. I farted. 2002-08-14 09:11:00 Hmmmm So I guess last week my mom got an email from my oldest and best friend. I have known guy since I was like 5. How odd. Anyway, we grew up in California together and then when I moved here to the east coast we kinda fell outta sorts and spoke a few times but nothing special. Well, I just got an email from him and now I think we are gonna try to stay in touch. I can't even begin to describe all the shit that we used to get into. Interesting. When I get a pic I'll stick it up. He is one of the nicest, honest, pure guys I think I know. 2002-08-15 11:21:00 Why is it that whenever you want to relax and do work - it can happen! - people always want to talk to you. I have this twat in my cube that wants me to listen to her bitch about things that no one cares about. This woman is a piece of work. Anyway, now on to the topic that I have no experience and feel the insane need to share and piss off people. You ever get those moments where you're brain goes into dream mode but you're still awake? Well I just gone through an Icon of Coil CD and a Floggin Molly CD and wanted to relax and so I put on Enya and read the Gossip on Eonline.com. Anyway, Angela Bassett who I love cause she's so talented and hot, was complaining that there were few women roles in the movies and how annoyed she was at this. I agree with her but she said this as she walked into K-19. A movie that I loved and all about the Russian Navy and a submarine. NOW, I ask you, in 1961, or even today, do you think there would be any women in the Russian Navy on a sub! No, I don't think so. This also got me wondering about this gov't worker I am (well the whole office is) having trouble with cause she doesn't know what she's doing and is mucking everything up. BUT, we can't fire her cause she's black. Now I am not a racist, I am an observer and I just tell things like I see them and would like to understand them. We have a blacks in government group, which I can see the necessity for I guess but in the work world I honestly don't see the color of one's skin to be a factor, nor the sex that they are. But there is not Whites in Government. I guess as the days go by and more and more groups get benefits or whatever it is I feel like, as a generic white male, i'm fucked. Not that I want to have a factor that would let me play the game, I just wish there were no game to be played. I know it's impossible cause I still yell obscene things as I drive and debase god knows what nationality, even mine, but it just seems like its getting outta control. Everyone has to sue everyone.... fuck it. I'm bored with this. It just makes me angry all over again." 2002-08-15 09:59:00 hurmmmarg Okay, bear with me cause I'm having one of those moments. I promise you can all beat me about the head and neck later for it. Ok - I can't act. I suck. I'm not what Stu was looking for for Museum and he's going to replace me. (He's not going to do that, this is just me having my own little pity party) I had to get that off my chest cause last nights rehearsals went..fairly well but I felt like I couldn't act. There were people that had to be told things over and over again and I thought that got kinda annoying. And then they would still fuck up the blocking. It's interesting. I don't want to say I'm perfect but I like to think that I only need to be told something like once and then it sinks in. I just wish I could believe I was good at this. That I'm not the major sucking force in this thing. Arg. 2002-08-16 16:43:00 boi As I sit here trying to stay awake, i have to wonder: what is the freaking deal with the word BOI. Not Boy...nonono...because the lesbians took women and made womyn and all that, apparently the gay community has taken the boy and make boi. I could really puke, Especially when 30+ year olds are calling themselves boi. Hello?!?! You're old, as in not getting younger, the young boys - pardon me - bois, dont want you anymore. Trust me, I know this cause I'm 31! I hate seeing a 50+ troll out hunting for something cause old men have a tendency to talk to me. I'm in ranting mode today. Renaissance Faire soon 2002-08-16 15:36:00 hang on sloopie Okay, I am so tired today. I know that when I go to the club I am going to be tired the next day but I usually leave before two. Did I mention that there were a butt load of hotties there? Maybe I was just in a mood but the boys were good, the girls were good, the music was actually pretty good (its usually pretty good), and it was just a fun night. Now I'm just typing to stay awake. And they played the Cult which was really cool. 2 more hours. I can do this...." 2002-08-16 10:30:00 You can fuck me but you ain't touching my horse See, most people dread Monday's cause they are the beginning of the week and there are for more days and all that shit but I'm thinking that Fridays are what suck ass for me. Every friday something goes splat! I'm serious. But maybe I harp too much, maybe I shouldn't talk about it....Yeah Right! First off, had a wonderful night last night at Nation. Totally cool. Headed down after rehearsal and got there about 11:00. Instantly ran into my friend Judy from college who I hadn't seen in a while and her hot cousin. We chatted a bit and then I headed outside with Michelle. Ran into some other people and finally found Elizabeth...who was in the company of this total hottie - Jarod. Woof! So we chatted a bit and Jesse came over and we spent the rest of the night talking and running into people that I hadn't seen in a while. It was just a all around great night. No dramas - just chatting and laughing. My friend Sam called last night and gave me the riot act at 2:00 as I was driving home. Apparently he's pissed that I haven't had the time to hang out with him. Apparently having me not around is making his life suck. I don't get it. Can't people be happy for me that I am doing something I love and that really makes me happy? But no, i get the riot act that I haven't gone out to his house and watched movies and relaxed. When will you people realize that I never relax. Can't do it. And I'm not going to pretend to do stuff that I don't want to do to pander to your petty hopes and dreams. Fuck that. Also I walk into the office today and am told that I had better prepare to go to this pissant conference mext week cause they need someone to run the laptop and projector. AIGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You mean I have to ignore my deadlines and work so that I can sit behind a fucking laptop and hit page motherfucking down for four (4!!!) days! I'd swear this was psychological torture but I know my bosses are too stupid to actually think of that. And I think it's the government that is putting in its too cents. Arg. I should have stayed in bed and masturbated till I passed out from fluid lossage. 2002-08-17 15:40:00 razor burn So I just shaved off my goatee and I have no idea why. I think i was going for the I need a change thing, but I dont like the way I look with out a goatee. I'll have to photo myself and stick it up and get a poll going or something. Hmm. 2002-08-19 16:30:00 tinkle tinkel Hi. You are like so tired of all this bullshit ain't ya? But you come back for more torture! (insert evil laughter here...no wait there, yes there) I am so giddy now. I have Flogging Molly on again and they make me want to dance around the room. I need to learn to dance. Note to self... Yeah so I'm like all giddy and perky and stuff. And I had to um share. :) 2002-08-19 14:52:00 BTW do plan on being old and scamming on the younger. They're just so tasty. But I will know that and no try to pretend that I am young. That was the crux of my boi rant of a few days ago. Why so i kepp justifing all this? Why can't I spell! 2002-08-19 12:24:00 I've made it! Okay so I got my first 'I'm irked' email from my journal ramblings. Carl I will answer you in time but I have 5 minutes to rage here before I have a meeting to run to. First I understand that age is not an important factor in dating, I don't think that was part of the Boi ramble, I was just saying mostly that if you are over 30, you should not be able to call yourself Boi. Its silly. Its silly if you're 20, i just hate the word. As for younger men dating older men, I couldn't care less. I'm partial to younger men, and I am now 31 which in gay years is rather old and off the popular radar. I am not attracted to older men personally but I am no right to say to that's its bad. Course just cause i have no right doesn't mean I won't say it anyway. But I do evaluate each person, male or female, that I am attracted to and if they can still walk under their own power and aren't drooling on themselves, then they are in the running. Though there is the whole gumming issue, but that's for later. But this is three minutes of quick typing, it may make sense or not. Oh well. If people get irked, oh well. I'll try and justify my position, listen you your side and go from there. Word of the day: NOONER! My first. Sigh 2002-08-19 09:20:00 Coffee mmmm So this was a pretty rad weekend. Friday I went to see a friends play, Marvin's Room, at the Greenbelt Arts Center. Besides some rather long scene changes, the play was quite good. My friend John was very good as Hank, the angst ridden teen. And it's always funny to see someone like John, who is the happiest, craziest, funniest person have to redo himself for the role. And it was a very quality production, again, save for the set changes. And they were really bad. Every other scene took place in the house of this family, so each time they had to wheel the refrigerator and the stove in, put the table and chairs and the recliner. Every time! I thought it would have been better to build it into the back wall and have a removable flat or something covering it and remove it when necessary. But that's just me. Then myself, John and two other friends, Jaki and Josh, went to Bennigans in Laurel to catch up on old times. It was nice. Saturday was a lazy day, a day that I needed very badly since I had been so tired from the week before, and I tried to sleep in as late as possible but folks kept calling and, well, that was the end of sleep. I also got my computer at home working again, thank god, but now my web cam, USB, conflicts with my wireless network card, also USB. So when the camera freezes it blows out the USB to everything and I have to reboot to get the connection to the internet back up. Dammit. Saturday night I went to a friends house warming party. That was a fun party. I just wish it hadn't been to freaking hot! We were literally huddled around the A/C. It was a bunch of friends just sitting around and drinking and talking and having a blast. There is an ... unfortunate photo of me in a Pop Tart Whore baby tee which may or may not make it on the page. It's way too embarrassing. But I will post some pics. But it was a blast. Sunday I slept in till like 12:30 cause I was so tired and hung over. Gin is evil but oh so good. Then I met over with my friend Jen and we had lunch and went back over to Elizabeth and Jaques house to see if they needed any cleaning from the night before but they did it all so we sat and around and chatted and stuff. It was a nice relaxing day. Now it's Monday and I get to go to Nick's in VA and stare at Jack the door guy. Such a nice guy and sweet. And hot. This week I have rehearsal Monday, wed, thursday and I have to pick my mom up at the airport on Tuesday so yet again it's no rest for the wicked. Sigh. :-) 2002-08-20 16:19:00 shake twitch okay the count is almost two days. For what? I'll tell you later. 2002-08-20 10:22:00 I'm fat Hi, as I sit here drinking my coffee and eating Droste orange pastilles, I can't help but think I'm fat. Course when I say fat, i'm my mind it's the screeching that Joan Cusak did in 'In and Out'. I love her. Still working on getting the pics. Apprantly I fucked up and didn't get them ftp'd over again. Just the one on the right over there with my two favorite hotties, Paul and Jarod. Yes they're straight, blah, but also really, really cool. I met Paul, the one sitting in the sofa with the great legs, at Nation a while ago and was smitten instantly. But like I said they are just also really cool and fun to talk to. Oh! Go here http://www.hotornot.com/r/?eid=KUHMAEN&key=WTE and vote for Paul on Hot or Not. I hope I can put that in there. If not I'll take it out. And because I'm just that odd, I met this really hot girl today at the front desk to get in. She was about an inch shorter then me and waiting for her escort. We talked for a few minutes, the X-Ray machine was backed up, and said that we should stay in touch. So I gave her my user name, such a geek, and we are gonna meet for lunch. She has this smile that starts on the left side of her mouth and then brightens up her entire face. Her name was Kathy. TO DO: Covert Paul. Ask Kathy out. Embarass myself for the whole world. [DONE] Renn Faire soon 2002-08-21 23:39:00 blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah blahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblahblah 2002-08-21 13:28:00 Apop So I picked a CD off my floor that I had trashed cause I thought it sucked. And then it did but now as I sit here going through the CD for the second time, bad day with the coworkers, I have really changed my view. The CD is Apoptygma Bezrerk's newest album Harmonizer. I love Apop and always have so when this CD came out I had to buy it. Listened to it in car on the way to work and liked the music but couldn't stand the voice, it sounded too up close and it seemed to stand out too much. Hard to explain. Anyway, I hated it so I tossed it on my floor and there it sat. For months. Then I think last Thursday I heard one of the songs at Nation and thought maybe i should hear it again. Finally today I brought it in and cranked up the earphones and I have to say I have changed my view. He still retains some of the darkness but also is surely showing off his DJ and mixing skills. He sounds like Victor Calderone a lot on a few of the songs which is a good thing since Victor is cool but it segues more into mainstream dance than dark industrial. Over all it is a really good album, especially over earphone so you can get every noise he throws in there. So far, and I will listen to it again, there are no songs that I really skip past. Song 8 is good....lalalallallaalalalalall 2002-08-21 12:57:00 will someone by me an iBook? just wondering 2002-08-21 10:24:00 grr okay the photo is up... 2002-08-21 09:16:00 Pron Ya know I love computers, for more than just porn too, but for some reason they hate me. My wireless network connection pooped out last night and I don't know why. It's just irksome. Dammit. Well yesterday was Leah's birthday and we all went down to The Big Hunt for drinks and chatter. I arrived late as I had to pick my mom up from the airport but sill got there around 10:30. It was pretty fun once I adjusted to the noise. I find myself unwilling to put myself in noisy situations cause they annoy me but then I realized that if you talk louder than everyone else it gets fun. Yes I realize the irony, or whatever. But Greg was there and Ed and Scott and a bunch of people you all don't know cause I don't know who all of you are either. Off to find a CD to wake me up - I'm thing Metallica Master of Puppets, VNV Nation FuturePerfect, Flogging Molly or Oingo Boingo. Hmmm 2002-08-21 00:47:00 melts in your mouth not in your... Ya know there is something to be said for M&M's and really salty chips after drinking. I don't know what will be said but I'm sure the symphony that my ass will make in the morning will be sure to let me know. do I share too much? 2002-08-22 14:39:00 All work and no play makes me a dull boy. All work and no play makes me a dull boy. All work and no play makes me a dull boy. All work and no play makes me a dull boy. All work and no play makes me a dull boy. All work and no play makes me a dull boy. All work and no play makes me a dull boy. All work and no play makes me a dull boy. All work and no play makes me a dull boy. All work and no play makes me a dull boy. 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All work and no play makes me a dull boy. 2002-08-22 11:49:00 Plop apparently someone shat on my birthday cake cause I am in the foulest mood and I don't know why. Everyone who talks to me today at work annoys me. I just want to be left alone which of course means that everyone comes into my cube and wants to talk to me. Sigh. I'm telling I should have a tazer so I could shut these fuckers up. Anyone want to go to the Renaissance Faire on Sat? 2002-08-23 15:04:00 hehe i farted So like he's an odd event. I was listening to said Loreena McKennit from the earlier post and when i got to one of my favorite songs, the music stopped. The CD kept going and all that, the title of the song kept going across the screen but no music. I heard something but didn't know what it was, so I turned the music up and there is the sound of this guy is his room. He's ironing an getting in the shower and yes at one point farting. I thought cool, somehow my CD frequency has tapped into someone on base and I'm listening to him get dressed. Fantasies went crazy and even though it was impossible for this to happen, the image was nice. But then I noticed he was listening to DC101 and the Elliot in the Morning show. Interesting cause it was 10:30. So I went to the beginning of the song and it all began again. It was me getting ready one morning. Odd. I have never heard it before and I don't know it happened. I do have a mic on my 'puter but I was burning the CD at the time. I'm stumped but it freaked me the fuck shit quack out. Odd. 2002-08-23 09:44:00 Fuck shit quack So I actually whistled on the way into work today, dont know why cause I can't stand whistling. Especially when you're in the bathroom and there are these guys who feel the need to sing and whistle as they pee. What's up with that? Anyway, got in and all was fine, rehearsal ... went. I didn't sleep for shit but I was still in a reasonably happy mood and I walk in the office and everyone is in a really bad mood. I have never heard such cursing! So of course I had to put the earphone is, but then I couldn't find music I wanted and I figured the music that takes me away from this work bullshit is either mellow or raging hard, so in honor of the Renaissance Faire, i put on Loreena McKennit. Speaking of the Renn Faire, I'm still looking - though I don't need someone to be there - for someone to accompany me. I don't know why I like that place. Part of it is the costumes. I would love to have a full garb outfit but I want to do it right. I love people just having fun and it's always fun to see the interaction between little kids and the workers there. The little girls see the outfits and get all excited. The boys see the swords and get all excited. Goes back to being the watcher for me I guess. Another part are the stage shows. My favorite being Shakespeare Skum. Loving comedy and Shakespeare as I do this troupe just does it for me. I love the jousting, the sword swallowers, everything. Another thing are the buildings and the general 'set'. Everything is done really well and looks fun. It's fun. Oh yeah and the beer. :-) 2002-08-26 16:49:00 fuck shit quack Good god I'm bored. I'm actually really busy and doing work and all but yet bored at the same time. I don't know how this is possible but apparently it is. And now I'm Virus scanning my computer cause I think a friend sent a virus along on an email. Boogersnots. Wow, I have absolutely nothing interesting to say today. Sigh. 2002-08-26 10:52:00 hehehehehehe I need to apologize for the long entry and probably all of them through out this journal thing. See I type and don't read what I type and I assume it all makes sense. And after reading the sunday night entry there is a lot that is non-sense even to me and I lived it. Again, ooops. 2002-08-26 10:29:00 Sweet merciful crap ... I'm tired. 2002-08-26 00:17:00 What a great weekend. What a nice weekend. Tiring but one of the best in a while. It all began Friday with, well the end of work, but really when I drove to Silver Spring to a series of one acts. Apparently its the thing to do in the summer and I can see why. They're short and easy to do for the summer. But anyway, what the Silver Spring Stage is doing for three weekends is having a set of one acts each weekend. That was a horrible sentence. Anyway, what I saw on Friday was the second weekend and there were three one acts for the evening. The first was a cute one called ISO. Nothing too special about it and it was a rather predictable story but the acting was good. Basically five woman all answer the same personal add and then all end up at lunch thinking that it was a private dinner with the guy. The guy never shows so the women leave one by one and it turns out the bartender was the guy in disguise. Shocking! Not. The second one was this play called Canadian Gothic. This was cool. It was just four people, a father, mother, daughter and her Indian boyfriend. (Canadian Indian, not country India) The play goes on and describes their lives ... just really well done. The acting was great but all of them. This was my second favorite I think. My favorite, for many reasons, was the last play which was Picasso at the Lapin Agile, by Steve Martin. Steve Martin has always been a favorite for his sheer irreverence and I have loved pretty much all he has done, especially in the later years. And this play is crazy! I had always wanted to see it and it was wilder than I thought it would have been. Its so hard to describe but needless to say I laughed my ass off. Next week my awesome friend Kim is in one of the shows and I can't wait to see it. Saturday I woke up and noticed it was raining. I was bummer cause I had planned on going to the Renaissance Faire. Renaissance Faire, you're now thinking 'What a dork.' Yeah, well eat me. But the rain stopped early and I got in the car and headed out. But by exit 7 on the Beltway I realized that Sic Flags was on the way and since I have a season pass I thought it would be nice to stop by, being free and all. So I did. And it wasn't all that crowded so I got there rode the Minderaser, Roar and Superman 3 times and left. It was about an our and a half there and I kept running into this group of three guys so we rode a few rides together and had fun. Then off to the faire. I know among some people the Faire is odd and full of freaks but those freaks are my friends and they're really cool. Most of them anyway. So I get there and start shopping. Already there is tons of stuff I want. I am still looking for garb and I think I found a bunch of stuff...when I get money again. Then I watched the Shakespeare Skum folks, who are always so cool. They are probably the main reason I go there. And the beer. I also ran into some folks from the Rude Mechanicals and we caught up on stuff. It was a blast. One of the cool things they did at the end of the night was a dedication to the guy who played the King for the past few years. I don't even know his name and in a way I felt silly that I was getting teary as people were singing to him and remembering him but death seems to find a way to break through things like that. Everyone who went to the Faire had seen the King and felt his sunny nature. People who were working there would tell me stories of him and I remember watching him over the years, cause I am a watcher, and how he would deal with people and it was just so caring. I'll miss seeing him. Then I had time to race home and hop in the shower and head over to my friend Elizabeth's house, had a drink then went down to Nation for Decades. It was 70's till 11:30, 80's till 2 and then 90s thereafter. And it was soo much fun. I haven't been to Nations cause the plays and all taking up my time and it was nice to catch up and see people again. Though I didn't really feel like I talked to many of them. My friend Jen also showed up and the three up us danced and made fun of everyone. It was a blast. The 80s was obviously the best time and for the most part they played all the good stuff, sometimes falling into the crappy stuff you still hear at weddings. Odd thing was this couple stopped Elizabeth and asked if they could have their photo taken with her cause she was so beautiful. No one ever says that to me, dammit! LOL Sunday was a late sleep in day. I can't remember the last time I slept into 1:00pm but if felt so good! And it was a long week so it was needed to recharge. Then I vegged, go lunch went over my lines and then off to rehearsal. It was a piece of the play that we hadn't worked on yet and it was really nice. I was beginning to feel bored. And Ric was there and he has the same need to mess around and laugh so we do that a lot. Definitely straight. Over all a very good weekend. One of the best in ages I think. 2002-08-27 17:09:00 Jimmy Fallon Did anyone see him on Letterman last night? Oh my god he was so cute! Sigh. I think I may have to build one of those cheesy fan pages or something. Grrrr. 2002-08-27 17:07:00 Rude Mechanicals Hey all, the Rude Mechanicals, with whom I have done 4 shows, are doing The Tempest in September. The dates are on the website: http://www.rudemechanicals.com and I encourage people to go. The shows the we do there are mostly Shakespeare, cause he's God, and tend to have a slight bent to them. The Romeo and Juliet I co-directed there was post modern with leather jackets and swords. There are still pics on my website I think. From what I hear, cause I haven't had time while I am rehearsing Museum, the times is Elizabethan. So nothing too off the wall and all the original text is intact, with minor cuts for time constraints. I'm probably going to go to the opening night at the Laurel High School show and I'll write a review and post it here. 2002-08-27 11:04:00 I’m full. Well my friend Charlie has moved back into town after being in lovely San Diego for a while. We went to the officer's club on base for lunch and caught up on old times. It was fun. It's going to be good to have another people so go out and hang in the bars with. But now, I'm terribly full and listening to Enya. How I am not asleep I have no idea. My mind has been going to Enya or Metallica recently and I foresee a mental breakdown on the future. Nothing too big I think but the usual slow burn. I can feel it sinking in already. It's interesting to be able to feel it after all these years. I have always knows when they were coming but now the I can pinpoint the process much better. And no before anyone says it's a self fulfilling prophecy, it's not. It's certainly not something I like doing. It's like being gay, those people that say it's a choice are insane. You think I want to the world to hate me! Sheesh. Anyway, I don't want to alienate my friends and have them always inquire into my mental health. It's annoying. All right I'm bored with this. 2002-08-28 16:26:00 Snarf well so much for a nice relaxing day. Yet again I woke up tired as hell. I think that if I could get to bed before 1:00am then things would be better. I'm trying. Last night my friend Jen and I hung out in Bethesda, getting dinner and going to Barnes and Noble. Always a dangerous place to go for the both of us. After dinner at Delhi Dhaba, we spent a good long time looking through all kinds of books. I ended up with only three, well Jen bought me one called Being Peace by Thich Nhat Hanh which is supposed to for you what the title says. I am very anxious to read that. Then I picked up 'A is for Alibi' by Sue Grafton, 'Rosencrantz & Guildenstern are Dead' by Tom Stoppard and 'Picasso at the lapin Agile and other plays' by Steve Martin. I love good plays. And these are my two favs of the moment. Well I will always love R&G. Then I headed home and tried to fix my wireless connection, which I did, then I had to sort through emails and get on ICUII and play for a bit then it was 1:00am. I cursed and went to bed. Hence tired today. I have to pee 2002-08-29 17:35:00 straight line Well, not much exciting has happened today. Dammit. I did get snide with a coworker who was dumb enough to take partial credit for work that I did. Its a 300 page XL spreadsheet merging 10 documents together and the good thing is is that everyone in the office, including my boss, knows that she has done nothing on this thing at all. It felt good. Stupid gutter snipe she is. There is a new cute girl in the building that I have flirted with three times today. She has the nicest smile and eyes. Twice she was walking with this really cute guy and I got to hold the door open for both of them. Now what else can I do for the both of them.... 2002-08-30 10:11:00 AirI woke up this morning, against the protestations of my head and body, and walked outside to breath in the cool air and was instantly transported back to the time I lived in San Diego. It was odd but so many of the smells and the air temperature reminded me of all the mornings when I would wake up and walk to school through the dew covered grass. I wanted to be there in CA and hop the number 20 bus to the beach and hang out by the shore, go to Belmont park and ride the coaster, watch the surfers. Sigh. Funtime. |