Blackotter  ::  Journal

2005-06-02 10:57:00
gacked from jeffla because I, also, am a lemming



1. What's the first word that comes to mind when you think of me?
2. Go to http://images.google.com/ and search for that word.
3. Reply to this post with one of the pictures on the first page of results (don't tell me the word).
4. Put this in your own blog so that I can do the same

2005-06-02 11:03:00
i woke super early today and now i am cursed with the most amazing desk stretches all day. if i could lay on my floor and super stretch I would but yeah not not on this floor

2005-06-02 12:52:00
so the play that I will most likely be directing for the Cedar Lane Summer Sampler this year involves what? A CLOWN! Why does god hate me. But actually after reading it I actually feel sorry for the clown. Doesn't mean I wouldn't push him down a flight of stairs but I would probably only use one hand

2005-06-02 13:50:00
sigh

2005-06-03 09:32:00
Because it's been driving me crazy since I was watching a BBC show called Little Britian, a stone in imperial weight is 14 pounds.

Had a good time last night see Midsummers. It was good to see the Rudes again.

2005-06-06 09:28:00
First off, my deepest apologies to myoffenceisrank for not making it to the party. I so wanted to be there and to see everyone but was hijacked by my father for the entire day. I was ... not happy. But we did have good father / son bonding and that was sorely needed. It sounds like it was very a nice party tho.

Since the father was in town and I was out of town on friday I also missed The Scottish Play. I am going to try and make it this weekend. I have heard really good things about it.

Other than that it's been relaxing. My allergies are getting to the point of High Annoyance. Its driving me crazy.

Back to the grind
2005-06-06 10:27:00

I want to be skinny dipping in the rivers and streams of the blue ridge mountains today. it's hot outside. I'm doing my best to not complain about the weather. I am more a cold person that a hot person. But at least i'll get more work done since being outside is ... challenging.

2005-06-06 12:21:00
i bent my wookie,

2005-06-07 10:49:00
just had to post this because....well jesus just look at her. :) thanks to walker1812.

 

2005-06-07 11:29:00
bored bored bored
horny horny horny
hate my job hate my job 

2005-06-07 15:48:00
crap. you know how you have friends in your life that you love more than anything but you have always been jealous about? well i was pecking around the internet and ran across information on this friend of mine and how well he's doing, and always has in everything he does, and it really got to me. Everything he touches seems to turn to gold. He's living the life I want, part time job with part time acting and it's just frustrating. But I hate when jealousy gets to me like that this. I obviously wish him the best but man I am jealous as shit. arg 

2005-06-08 09:16:00
wow what a night. auditions for the summer sampler were pretty damn shitty. there were some good actors but just not enough of them. the meeting at the end of the night to see who gets who was just no fun at all. i have what i think is a good crew for the two shows i'm directing but then i also go suckered into one as an actor. it didn't occur to me till later what i had done but agreeing to that which is basically say that i am not seeing my bf for a pretty solid month. i am tard of the universe. man new relationships are a tricky bitch. and the play that i am in is called 'coming out of the closet' and i'm the straight character. but it's funny and it will be fun. all of the shows are going to be good actually.

we shall see 

2005-06-08 09:38:00
dear god. i have been singing this song all morning and it just occurred to me what it was. I have been signing All I Want For Christmas by Mariah Carrey. Someone please put a bullet in my head

2005-06-08 12:42:00
get outta my dreams...and into my car...

i hate users. they really are as dumb as we make them out to be. i just rode in the elevator with this short army colonel who laughed WAY too loud and way too long and he was cracking on this system that we interface with and he made it abundantly clear that he had no idea was he was talking about. i wanted to step on him 

2005-06-08 14:38:00
Kiss my shiny metal ass, actors. BAH!

I just called all my actors to let them know of their parts and stuff and for some reason I HATE doing that. Maybe it's a confidence issue - who? ME? never.... - or something but I dread it sooooo much. And in the end I got one yes, one maybe because he wants to go to Montgomery's auditions tonight, two voice mails, and an email. Wheeeeee. Why do I do this again? 

2005-06-09 09:14:00
in a day full of hate and rage...well in a day where I am full of hate and rage, i offer up this otter.


 
2005-06-09 11:55:00
AIDSWalk, Hi all.

Well it's that time for me again. I am collecting money for AIDSWalk DC. The walk isn't until October but I have set my goal rather high and will need to spend the time getting at least $2000.

History: As a bi/gay man, AIDS is always a scare and always on my mind. Like many I always thought that it was something outside the world I lived in. I was wrong. Last August while I was dating my boyfriend, we found out that he was HIV positive. I honestly can't think of anything more devestating in my life. Since that time and the scare of was I or wasn't I, I'm still negative, I have become crazed about HIV and prevention and taking care of those that are sick. So, with that, I ask that you donate to the cause because the effects of HIV hit everyone.

CLICK HERE to donate at my AIDSWalk website.

I thank you.

I will be sending out some kind of reminder and a somewhat regular basis till the walk.

Brett 

2005-06-09 15:41:00
Thank you Andrew and Kim. :),

2005-06-10 14:24:00
,word mammy...i mean meme, In the beginning, tyhallmark said: "Boobs!"

dame_ratcliffe said: "SAG!"
composerscott said: "Wonder Bra!"
chickenhat said: "Eat me!"
myoffenseisrank said: "Animal House"
shadowcaptain said: "TOGA!"
tazira said: "cowbell"
2sick2pray and cats_n_crying both said: "Christopher Walken".
And treyhawk said: "These boots were made for walking..."
Then cats_n_crying changed his mind and said: "Dead Zone"
And treyhawk nsaid: "The Jews were right.  Jesus wasn't the savior."

And the blackotter says: "taint" 

2005-06-13 10:41:00
,so damn tired, Good weekend. Little Sleep. Paying Dearly.

Friday went to see the RM Macbeth and was pleasantly surprised. There were some rough points as there are with any show but over all the cast and crew did a fairly good job. I could write a review, and maybe later I will, but I'm not in the mood at the moment.

Saturday woke up and cleaned and vegged and stuff. Got scripts made and delivered them to my actors. Getting them all together is a pain in the ass. After that went into the city to meet up with friends and watch the Gay Parade. Nothing new. People in leather that shouldn't be in leather. Drag queens. Lots of religious stuff - all good, and typical body builders / personal trainers. Even they weren't that cute. DC cowboys had the cutest guys though not always the best, in step dancers. After that went to Omega to be bored at a boring bar. Thankfully everyone else was bored and Melissa wanted to go to Remingtons. So we did. Had fun. Had to drive folks back and hence never made it to Nation. Annoyed a little about that.

Sunday woke up with a nasty hangover, more from lack of water than amount og alcohol, and packed up the dogs and went to see Ky. We vegged and relax and too the dogs out for a very long walk, played in the river :), and bac to relax before I headed home again. It was a very nice time. Missed the festivities on Suday for pride and would have loved to have brought Ky there but we had a good time.

Now I want to be alseep. Servers are down. No one seems to want to get on the ball and get it fixed...i hate my job. 

2005-06-13 12:24:00

I would like to state for the record that at 8:44am, i have nothing to  say. 

2005-06-14 12:02:00
it's now 12:01 pm and I have too much to say. Let's just say that I am the fucking luckiest person to have such wonderful people in my life.








and i farted. 

2005-06-14 23:40:00
damn reality television. i hate the usual crap but I have become addicted to Bravo. Tonight I caught Queer Eye and yes i still love that show. And I also caught Blow Out. I swear that guy isn't straight. But he is an entertaining ass.

2005-06-15 12:34:00
now this is getting annoying. I have something in my chest and it won't go away. it's been there since monday afternoon and it feels like a huge, read huge, gas bubble in there right below the sternum. My chest and stomach area gernerally are in pain most of the time and, so far, no matter of rolaids or tums will make it go away. My lack of medicine on base precludes me from trying more at the moment. But man it hurts. The area right below the sternum is painful to the touch and the sneeze i just had hurt like hell since I had to take in a huge breath. I really dont want to go to the doctor over this as it's will be embarrassing when he says, You have gas, go home.

I've shared enough for today. uncomfortable

2005-06-16 14:24:00
good to hear that I am okay.

apparently I pulled some rather painful muscles in my abdomen and bruised a rib. So painful breathing, laughing, sneezing, coughing..et al is explained. Downside is that there are no happy drugs for the pain. Oh well. i'll heal in like a week. 

2005-06-17 10:16:00
,you alright big guy? You want a soda?, so i almost got hit by a bus today on the way to work. this really isn't all the exciting as it happens a lot more than I'd like it too. I admire bus drivers because what they have to deal with and, in general, automobile drivers are shits. Part of me kinda wanted to because then i could get the Taurus fixed a little. Since it's my main auto now I would like to brettify it. Not like the rice rocket I saw last night with neon under the car and inside the car and on the hood of the car...ug.
But it's friday and that's a good thing.



CLICK HERE to donate at my AIDSWalk website. 

2005-06-17 10:19:00
so a phenomenal waste of time is going to Family Guy Quotes.com. i have spent too much time already this morning laughing to myself alone in my cube.

2005-06-17 11:58:00,
Family Guy, I CANT STOP! lol


Peter: Hey, What's His Name?

Al Gore: Dick Army

Peter: Phhhhh, ha ha ha ha. No Seriously What Is It?

Al Gore: Dick Army

Peter: Phhhhh, ha ha ha ha. Hey Dick, What's Your Wife's Name? Vagina Coastguard?

2005-06-20 16:42:00
i have nothing really to say today. i am just frustrated that 12 year old kids have better hardware that we do. so frustrating.

can i PLEASE win the lottery? i promise that I will share the money with people I like. Strippers and booze for everyone!

why is it that the instant you take off a band-aid, that's when you smack that gash into the microwave and start bleeding all over again. And fresh dripping blood is so much redder than i thought it would be. I guess cause i was staring it but it really looked fake.

saw Team America: World Police last night and thought it was the greatest fucking movie ever. I laughed, I cried, it was much better than Starlight Express, I'll see it again and again.

Seacrest OUT!

2005-06-21 13:24:00
we're naming some new machines after Harry Potter characters. Weeeee Geekdom!

2005-06-21 13:28:00
someone please stop me from cashing in my food stamps and buying a PSP. i want, don't need it. have issues with sony anyway. aren't happy with UMD though they are cute. can't afford it, could use the money for other things.... but it's soo cute

2005-06-23 09:42:00
Blarg.

I hate being a walking ball of stress. It's no fun for me or anyone else that I seem to come into contact with. I have a short fuse for most people anyway, most people being the generic mouth breathers that do nothing but take space and not the folks who are reading this and who know me, but I get in the mood I am in now and the usual things that I used to enjoy or were able to tolerate just bug the snot of out me. My room being messy is going to make my head explode and all I can do is shift things from one area to another and that pisses me off. The guy who put my over easy egg on my plate this morning and THEN asked if it was too raw. Um YEAH. Fucking tard. I'm going away this weekend but I am know that I will be thinking about work and then i get back on Wednesday and I have a hellish morning there. Nothing like coming back from a long weekend to get to work early. Don't care about my plays. Sometimes I do and sometimes I don't. Tonigiht i meet with one group and the writer and I give him the new script that I'm using that includes LOTS of changes by me. I changed every page and added a new ending. I hope he's okay with that.
Feel fat today. Everyone is looking at me funny (or i think that they are) and that doesn't help my mood.

jesus i need to relax. i need more coffee bitchy

2005-06-23 10:48:00
People suck. And here's why.

So I was outside to get air, come back inside and to get to my area you have to walk past the up escalator. There are two normal sized doorways on each side to get the next zone. There are two men standing there that I could squeeze through. As I approach, two people they know come through and just stand there while they shake hands or greet eachother or whatever. I'm standing there waiting to get through and they don't even acknowledge my presense and instead just stand there, or slowly slink through the doorway. If I hadn't been so angry I could have said something but i didn't. Finally one of the guys that was there SLOWLY moved out of the way and I was able to get through. This whole exchange took like 15 seconds but was just insane. Maybe i'm being to critical. i dunno. pissed off

2005-06-24 13:28:00
for some reason I am in a really much better mood than yesterday even though everything is going wrong at work. wheeee

look a new face icon.

2005-06-24 13:37:00
and in the midst of everything going to shit, they have decided to drop comm lines meaning that I can't get to the server i need which means i can't work and we can't tell them to leave because we need these lines and it will be at least 2 weeks to get them back and that will slip the schedule and stuff.


icon of sultry me..

2005-06-24 15:16:00
oh my god i think they are out to kill me. there is a file out there was wasn't changed (by me) in order to do this upgrade. I have had to fix this file 3 times on 8 different versions of the same file. How this thing passed testing I have no idea. this error should have been picked up months ago.

I may never leave the office today. :( if i wait at the main base gate will someone bring me a flask of gin?

2005-06-29 10:46:00
Quite a nice relaxing mini-vacation. It's hard to be back at the office. Saturday afternoon headed down to VA to hang out with Ky and relax. Went out and saw Batman and loved it. Sunday went and saw Bewitched and liked it. Drove up to my house and crashed there sunday night. Drove to Hershey Park and spent the day there. Had a freaking blast. Loved the coasters and the smell of chocolate all day. Drove back to VA that night which was a very hard 4 hour drive. Relaxed tuesday since I was blown out. I could hardly stay away all day. I think i pushed my body to the edge over the past few months and this was the day to relax and sleep.

Next vacation should be to Six Flags in NJ probably in August. Can't wait.

2005-06-30 17:52:00
,A day, Well this day started of by going to a funeral. This person was someone I never knew but I knew his daughter very well. She is someone that comes to our house for Christmas and birthdays and other various holidays and I was glad that I was able to attend the funeral. The interesting part was that it was held at Arlington National Cemetery. Amazingly this was my first visit to the cemetery and it was breathtaking. The service was awesome (the old usage of the word not the new). When they brought in the ashes, the back doors opened and there was a band playing. Incredible. The service made me cry. Apparently Ed was a well loved man by everyone and though they didn't have time to have people speak, the priest told a few good stories since he knew Ed as he volunteered at the Chapel with funerals of other naval soldiers. Horse drawn caissons took the ashes to the grave site where the band played again. There was a 21 gun salute and 6 incredibly precise ceremonial guardsmen folded the flag and handed it to the widow. It was amazing. Why does it feel so odd to cry for someone you never knew? I know his daughter and there is the connection but is that enough to really cry? I didn't care and cried freely. It was good. Then we went to the Officer's Club and had a nice meal and then headed to work. And now I am here and trying to work on my website. I want to get it to a place where i can update it all the time. I am working on the roller coaster page now.

need to sneeze