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2007-05-01 15:57:00
Posting pics of Ky's very cute new dog since he can't on LJ. It's a black German Sheppard named Brando. I'll pass comments on to him.
2007-05-02 08:53:00
For some reason The Neutron Dance by The Pointer Sisters just popped in my head. I dont know why. Allergies make the brain do funny things.
2007-05-03 13:46:00
when did Matt Stone, of south park fame, get kinda hot. oddness.
2007-05-07 10:18:00
Weekend.
Had fun doing the 48Hour Film Project. Didn't have a role this year but had a good time helping out and watching the goings on. Should be a good one this year.
Went and saw a fucking awesome play yesterday afternoon. Cedar Land Stage is currently running 'The Goat (Or who is Sylvia)' by Edward Albee. Man this is a fantastic piece. Definitely not for the young ones. At it's most basic, it's about a guy who fucks a goat and the repercussions of said action. The actors are mostly all amazing. Ted Culler, who plays the 'goat fucker' is reserved and cool and funny and sad and swings between all these emotions with easy. Michelle Trout play his wife and she is fucking amazing. Once the odd opening is past and she gets into the meat of it all, she shines like a beacon. I'm a jaded mediocre actor and when someone can make me feel something till my ears water is so fun. She goes through so much pain and has a scream in there that you can feel through your soul. Scott Bloom is the best friend of the lead guy and he just didn't do anything for me. Kinda meh. Brady Kirchberg plays the family's gay son and he does a very good job. At first I thought he was going to be kinda whiney but at the end there is a highly disturbing scene with his father. Anyway, if you want a fun heavy time at the theatre, go see this. I believe it won a Tony back in 2002.
2007-05-07 10:18:00
i think my brain fell in a k hole
2007-05-09 23:22:00
crust
[EDIT] blarg [EDIT]
2007-05-10 11:33:00
madonna's bedtime stories is a pathetic album. and erotica is pretty bad too. that was not a good year for her. it was before she really began to work on her voice and became the re-re-re-re-re-re-incarnation that she is now. But what do I know. I liked American Life.
people, as a general populance, are really beginning to piss me the fuck off. be it that cute old lady who can't walk fast enough....oh who am i kidding, little old ladies are always cute. Old men, no. But my coworker won't stop talking and its driving me crazy.
Oh yeah, MY WISDOM TEETH ARE KILLING ME. They are giving me the worst headaches. I dread getting these suckers pulled but I will do it right now just to feel better. And what an odd pain.
Red letter day: I am not horny at all today. Could be the pain. I do wish i had a bunch of subject to photograph. I want to take pictures of people. The way a guys hair at the base of his neck seems to form two 'fangs'. Muscles on arms. People sleeping. All parts of the body are intriguing and so different from person to person. There were a gaggle of marines on base today and they had just finished running and each person was different, different heights, sweat marks, hair, size, and it's all so fascinating.
Going to get more advil.
2007-05-11 12:01:00
Deep breath...
ok so like last night was thursday and that means that at JRs you can drink all you want for 9 dollars between 6 and 8, well it's not really 8 but more like 7:45 cause the clocks they have there are all gay and shit, which is appropriate since it's like a gay bar ... and shit, but really I dont want to drink that much rail so I always upgrade to the 13 dollars top shelf thing cause you really can tell a difference and certainly you can feel it in the morning, know what I'm saying (waits for the high five ........ bitches) and I said i wasn't going to drink a lot because I was meeting my friend Will later after his appointment but my usual crowd of g.c.ers weren't there so I was in an uncomfortable zoney kinda thing and I was really feeling fat too and so that added to the sheer hell that is my brain so I did drink kinda fast and then it was some guy's birthday who's name I think i know but cant think of and he's this really nice guy but kinda round but totally sweet and it was his 40th birthday and I swear I would not have guess him a day over 28 which made me jealous and shit but he bought me a shot of Jack which was oh so tasty and why he bought his and our shots is beyond me and Darian, who's birthday is the 30th, also had a tequila shot said that we should have got them but it was too late and the tequila made me think of Ty and his love of the stuff, well I think its still a love of the stuff, and Ty was missed but he had to work at his bar and then around the time of the shot Will walked in and I was about a sheet and a half gone and happy and chatting and there was this really cute boy there that looked like the boss guy from Ugly Betty and Ken knew him but I never spoke to him because that would have led to something and all I wanted to do was photograph him and thats when i realized I really am in my own life but then Will had a beer and was reintroduced to all the people that he met when he and I passed JRs a few weeks ago and so that was fun and ken got all flirty like he does which somehow completes the night as in if he stops flirting that means you're past prime or something but I haven't and thats good and then Will took my drunk ass to mcdonalds and i got a happy meal and what do you get with a happy meal .... a TOY and it's a cool fricken toy of Donkey from shrek 1,2,3 and if you pull his tail he talks and says three things and I meant to take a pic but i then i didn't and Will have to get to that later and so we ate and laughed and had and good time and it's so nice and refreshing to have a friend like Will to talk and chat with and then i went home and had an interestingly stupid conversation with a friend and went to bed.
whew.
2007-05-11 12:47:00
It summer and that must mean that I am directing again for Cedar Lane Stage's One Act Festival.
I am directing two short shows this year.
One is a political piece and I need 2 men in their 30s and one woman in her 30's. Going for early 30s. One of the men is supposed to have only one arm and if you can work with that, awesome. The woman is supposed to be kinda ditsy.
The other piece is fricken hysterical and requires the man getting duct taped to a lamp and a table and a sofa. I need a man in his late 20's and a woman of unstated age but i'm going for 30-40s. Basically she's had a very bad day and walks in on this guy trying to rob her. Poor guy.
Auditions are this monday and tuesday night at cedar lane and I think they are at 7...ish. Cedar Lane Stage has more info and directions.
2007-05-14 01:07:00
I know that in my time here I may not have been the best friend to everyone. I know that everyone knows that I have a hard time calling people to hang out. Lord knows I talk about it all the time and I've mentioned it here numerous times. But why all of a sudden do people seem to get really pissed when I'm not free when they are? I'm either engaged in other plans and they aren't and because of that people get annoyed. People come and go and lessons are learned. One down, lessons learned.
2007-05-15 08:21:00
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE
If you have nothing to do this summer and want to be in a one act play, come to auditions tonight. I have 5 roles to cast and I only, maybe, have one. I need 4 people, 3 men 1 woman, in their 20s / 30s I know know that there are a lot more roles to be cast. Tell your friends. Tell anyone. Cedarlanestage.org for directions.
2007-05-15 10:26:00
yesterday was the first night of auditions for the Cedar Lane Summer Sampler. We had like 8 people. Not good. We have a total of 12 one acts this summer. I have two that I am directing and another that I will probably be acting in because this director wants me to be in it. I may have him in one of mine if no one else comes that has any potential. This is the most unnerving part. I want this to be done so that I can get back to directing and acting. But it's always fun and I'm sure that everything will come off well.
Yesterday went down to see Ky and Brando. As posted before Brando is the cutest dog ever. He seemed to really like me. And the visit with Ky was really nice. It was so good to see him again and though it was difficult with me still shifting my emotions from one side to the other, it was nice. We slipped into our laughing patterns and just had fun. We are going to end up as really good friends. Today I'm a little emotionally fragile but working through it all. :)
FUCK
I hate today. Auditions fucking sucked. And i leave with my favorite quote from Christmas Vacation:
"And I want to look him straight in the eye and I want to tell him what a cheap, lying, no-good, rotten, four-flushing, low-life, snake-licking, dirt-eating, inbred, overstuffed, ignorant, blood-sucking, dog-kissing, brainless, dickless, hopeless, heartless, fat-assed, bug-eyed, stiff-legged, spineless, worm-headed sack of monkey shit he is! Hallelujah! Holy shit! Where's the Tylenol?!?"
2007-05-18 10:38:00
It's friday and for once i'm not hungover. I think this is a red letter day. I know my liver is quite confused.
Hung out with Will last night and we went to JR's and met up with Ty, looking very good, and others.
By the by, just looked in the mirror, I'm fucking hot today. Red letter day part 2.
Had a blast at JR's talking and laughing and it was nice to have Will there to see for me all that I can't see. It's interesting to have someone tell you so much that goes on that either I have not seen or my insecurities don't allow me to see. At one point the curtain of happiness fell and i slipped into my usual mind fuck state and I perceived the Hot Guy In Red to not notice me and blah blah blah so I did a mental mind dive.
Ty, Will and I then went to Annie's and had much needed food. Food is so much better later in the evening and after a few Guinsess'. Then Will and I had a nice talk after walking Ty to his car about so many things. I love him because he really challenges my brain. Today I feel like a red rubber ball in a tornado where everything I know and feel is being whirled and whirled uncontrollably and there isn't anything I can do about it.
[EDIT] Deleted morose boring crap [EDIT]
2007-05-18 11:39:00
I was trying to find out what it was called before i posted about it but last night Will and Stephen gave me the coolest thing. It's a Koru pendant necklace that is awesome. It symbolises new life, growth, strength and peace. And lord know i need that. Below is a picture. My is a cool black tho. :)
2007-05-21 19:32:00
Why do cars hate me? Was just told that I need $2200 worth of repairs. The minimum is $1100. Fuck me.
2007-05-22 14:41:00
Tuesday.
Fosters Home for Imaginary Friends Season 2 on DVD 9/11
Simpsons season 10 August 7
Tired beyond all recognition.
100 Grand candy bar with coconut tastes like ass. Ass with rice crispies.
Picking up car tonight. Tempted to cry when I pay my bill.
Meeting prospective new house matey thing guy tonight. We'll see. Keeping hope low. Why break a trend.
Sunday did some nice volunteer work for Equality Maryland in support of marriage rights for LBGT marylanders. It was quite the event. There were lots and lots of very nice G and L couples there all looking very cute. Well some looked like they had partied way too hard and trying to look, and i'm quilty of this as well, way younger than they were. But there plenty of cute couples canoodling in the corners and holding hands and all that shit. But it was a nice event and my second with Burgundy Crescent.
Father and step mother in town and I haven't been to the gym since saturday. I'm going crazy.
Still not terribly horny. Even masturbation has gotten boring and perfunctory. I wonder how long I can go without doing it. Depression is a great cock stroke killer.
Did see Another Gay Movie and laughed my ass off. Though I am still scarred by seeing Richard Hatch's penis. oh i feel the bile rising..."
2007-05-23 14:14:00
I think i just fell asleep at my desk. like coworker walked out and i nodded off for a few seconds. UG. so tired. i thought i was going to fall asleep walking to the bathroom a little while earlier
2007-05-25 01:46:00
Ah so here I sit in the emergency room waiting to be looked at for extreme back pain. It's 9:47 and I've been here for a maybe 15 minutes. I don't want to be here. I know it's nothing but the pain is debilitating and so here I sit. I hate these places. Mostly for what its going to cost me and that's just stupid. But tomorrow I leave for south carolina and want to feel good while I'm there. But regardless, I'm alone and kinda scared.
2007-05-25 02:03:00
Oh good. I'm getting full registration. No quick trip for me. Have I mentioned the fact the I HATE HATE HATE hospitals.
2007-05-25 02:53:00
"Now I have a gown on, do I take my underwear off?, and going for an x-ray. Good god."
2007-05-25 02:59:00
Im alive which is good since back pain shouldn't kill me. Hate hospitals. Sat a lot with this old lady behind me calling for the nurse and sounding frail. Now I'm VERY high on pain meds. Wheee. Here is me in the hospital.
2007-05-25 22:22:00
ok, so i think i am going to kill myself. I dont mean suicide, i mean that I am so clumsly that I am going to some how kill myself. It looks like I broke my foot. Tripped in the hotel room, cant put pressure on it, all my family is like 'rest and take the percoset you got last night and it'll be fine'.
i want to feel better and i want to go to the hospital. Tomorrow I'm taking the car and finding one.
2007-05-29 11:16:00
well the weekend was interesting. after getting out of the hospital late thursday night, i went home and packed for the trip to South Carolina for the family reunion. I was very excited to go and alsp apprehensive. I didn't know a lot of these people really well and it seemed like, on the last reunion on 1999, that everyone knew each other better. I guess it's silly to think that and once i got there, all was good. Well the family was good. I was in so much pain all weekend that I have made an appointment for thursday at my doctors office to see what is up with my back. I also popped a tendon, most likely in my foot and that made the back pain feel like nothing. Ug. Flexeril (sp) doesn't do shit. Dammit. Percoset does but that shit will fuck up your world. I have only taken one of those.
The reunion was awesome. It was so good to see everyone again. People had grown and changed over the years but they all still looked the same. It was nice to feel the bond of family through everyone. It was really nice to see George and Karen again for sure. They were the closest family up here before they moved to S.C. I got some nice bonding time with the other people my age and that was nice. I get shy around people my age for some reason. Jenny and Jimmy both said they liked the mention of their brother Peter that I put in my LJ when he died. Like I said way back when he died, I never really knew him other than that one time at the reunion back in 1999 but it's still a sad thing. Especially seeing how his family is dealing with it. I don't know what the reason as that made him do it but there is some sort of curiosity to know. But there was fun to be had at the reunion and it was nice. The kids were all running around and the older generation kept saying that it's our turn to keep the line going. Slight tinge of something when they said that as the line dies with me but thankfully my brother will keep it going. But it was nice to hang with Jimmy and his wife, Jenny and her husband, and Anastasia and I can't remember if there was anyone else...Anyway it was fun. Glad I went.
Last night went to Will and Stephen's for dinner and had a blast. There were 6 of us for dinner and drinks and we had a really nice time as always.
My back hurts a lot today. I have an appointment with my dr on thursday. I want it to be thursday now. ow.
2007-05-29 13:10:00
i hurt
2007-05-31 13:41:00
Doctor Visit: uneventful.
My wonderful and lovely doctor needs an x-ray, nay an MRI, before she can seriously look at my back. Has anyone ever had an MRI? What sorta cost am I looking at here. Insurance will cover some but what am I going to be stuck with?
More percoset tho. i may not put the prescript in since i have some left and no keen on having 30 more pills around.
I need to fart.