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January, 2004
2004-03-01 15:27:00 I am super fucking giddy today. I don't know why. Well i know why cause I got a phone call and something that simple makes me super happy. Gleeeeeeeeeeee. This weekend rocked. It was mtvs' birthday and I am glad to have been able to partake in the festivities. Maybe I'm being super cheezy today but mtvs is one of the greatest people I know. So the festivities began friday night with mtvs (Jill), Lisa (Kelley) and myself (Sabrina) meeting at the Coyote Ugly down by the MCI center. What follows are just observations so I don't mean to piss off any certain groups of people. That said, straight men are freaking hysterical. The bar is exactly like the movie with super hot women ( and a lot of them were wood worthy ) dancing on the bar and singing and being all crazy. We got there and the first thing you see are lots of big big big burly men making sure that nothing bad happens to any of the women which is a very smart thing but some of these guys, besides being hot, were scary. The music was loud and periodically bad. The men were walking around with their tongues practically hanging out at all the skimpily dressed ladies. It was kinda fun when a certain song came on and all the bartenders got on the bar and did some routine but the problem there being if they are all on the bar then that leaves no one to tend to the drinks. Problem. Kelly and I waited forever on the third floor while Jill tried hard not to dance and be branded a freak in a place such as we were in. Straight men also CANNOT dance. It was funny. If they were drunk they were being all smarmy and if they were sober they looked like there were having a seizure or more likely dancing to the music in the head because they certainly were NOT finding the beat that was being pounded into our heads but the speakers right above our heads. Then there was bling boy who was this white guy with a gap-ish style button up, jeans or chinos and this stupid looking bling neckless which was odd cause he really had no neck and the stupidest expression on his face. You look at him and just laugh. Then there was a lot of yelling. Woo-hoos and yeahs. I am not sure why. But we still had fun even though I felt like there was a big pink neon triangle on my head. And the drinks were expensive. $7 for a rail bourbon and coke. And they had the guys in the bathroom handing you towels. Why do they do this? It's not the Ritz Carlton. It's a stupid theme bar. But it was a lesbian fantasy for the guys as only the women were allowed to get on the bar and dance and when girls got drunk they would dance together but the men were not allowed to get involved. It was a loud, clothed, expensive peep show.
After that we headed to Apex. Gay club packed with stupid gay men. I think I will prove
here that I truly like no one. The attitude was totally different, not to mention the
music but Apex seemed more friendly. We headed upstairs and hung out in the karaoke
room
for a bit and drank more (stronger drinks and cheaper too) and then headed down to the
main floor to dance a little. I think I danced a little. Kinda fuzzy. There was this
outrageous interchange between two 'men' in line for the bathroom that was all about Tina
(the drug not the singer) and how much this one guy paid and he charged his friend and
all this really insane crap. But they sounded proud about the whole thing like they were
actually cool for getting fucked up on drugs. I liked my pot days but there is such a
different culture in the gay scene about drugs and the utter proliferation of them out
there. I'm not a prude about things but I was just shocked about the whole thing. I
can't imagine getting so into the scene and so into the drugs and so into the body
conscious bullshit.
2004-03-02 13:29:00 HFS I dont think I have had a day that I have been this busy is ages. I am also tired as hell which is making things even harder. But I like being hard....er I mean busy so all is good I guess. There was no point to this. I just needed a little distraction. 2004-03-02 17:01:00 I have to say that the latest Melissa Etheridge album is the best in years. Its rocking and sentimental and a freaking good listen. 2004-03-03 10:56:00 Momma always said there would be days like this.... I just didn't know there would be so many. sigh. the brain is a tedious and wonderful thing. i am having this conflict in my brain of being excedeeding happy and in love and fighting old daemons that wish to bring me down. i made the mistake of scanning old photos in the computer last night and i found ones from where i was 7 to recent and that sent me down this crazy insane spiral. I like my job but i hate it. It's so not what I want to do. I want to (as i listen to Brad Paisley) a celebrity. i want people to pay attention to me and kiss my ass. I just think that I am not doing something that I should be cause this isn't the life I should be leading. Not that I don't every experience that I have had, well except that donkey sex show in Cazamel..., but I am grateful for what I have and who I have in my life. I am still convinced that I have the best friends in the world. Flakey but i love 'em. Oh look my boss just walked in. I should delete this. 2004-03-05 10:48:00 I guess that's close to being a nun
2004-03-05 10:51:00 BURP Man I am tired today. I would like to thank the taxi cab that cut me off today hence getting my ass stuck in the intersection. Twat. Thank god it's Friday. Going to see Fools tonight somewhere in Bethesda and then another play tomorrow. Somewhere along the line i need to find time to drink heavily. No point to this entry. 2004-03-05 14:18:00 lol How can a person that hates the way he looks so much be so Narcissistic? But on the good side im only 50% Schizoid. MwwAAAAAA
2004-03-05 14:27:00 Um. I will have sex with that man, Mr Stephanopolous. Who can tell that I am bored. Piles upon piles of work sit just to my right. No, the other right. Yes, there they are. But I am distracted but an audition I want to do that is tonight but I don't know if I will be in the area because of a conference in that time frame and my boss is out of town. Poopsicle. Hershey's has Kisses that are filled with CARAMEL. Um, they are very good. Murph...gobble....burp. 21 days. Hopefully. I need my fix. I have gas. Maybe I should retake the personality disorder test. And of couse I now have that movie, DISORDERLIES!, in my head. I never saw it but that doesn't seem to matter cause I can just make up a movie - IN MY HEAD! Um, i should go now. 2004-03-07 18:17:00
congratulations. you are the kiss my ass happy bunny. You don't care about anyone or anything. You must be so proud which happy bunny are you? brought to you by Quizilla 2004-03-07 18:46:00 2004-03-08 16:37:00 blarg i dont want to go to the gym tonight. i am not in the mood. I want to chat on line and watch tv and veg. But i am feeling very tightly wound right now and need to go work off this energy. I would have much more fun with a cord of wood and an ax. No one boss wise has been here all day and I haven't goofed off all day. Very strange 2004-03-09 00:17:00 Happy Birthday to my cousin Peter Bursenos. He would have been 30 today. 2004-03-10 09:00:00 blah Blah. I find it exciting when you can actually hear your mind snap. It was yesterday around 1:40 and my mind snapped like a Christmas cracker. Why does it seem so easy for other people to blissfully go about their lives but I get bogged down in this insane crap that is driving me nuts. Jack is the happiest thing in my life and I can't wait to see him again. This long distance shit is harder than I thought it would be. My job is going well and I'm doing good work and getting promotions and crap but still there is something missing. I dunno, there seems to be a lot of heavy stuff that I just shuck off as easily as I used to. And my knee is killing me which is scaring the shit out of me. bitch, bitch, bitch, moan, moan, moan 2004-03-10 20:02:00
2004-03-11 14:20:00 strange phenom anyone else still get the high school hard on? I guess i have to call it something else nowadays but it usually comes along when I am sleepy, like now, and I'm trying to listen to this guy chat about some boring crap to this other guy and all of a sudden I realize I have a boner. I love the word boner. So then I get all paranoid that I will have to get up or something and then all i can do is focus on my boner and then i have to stretch more and that makes it worse... i like my pirate icon. I think I'll call him The Bone Pirate or the typical Butt Pirate. Bone is better. going to heat my coffee up now 2004-03-12 23:06:00 Wonderfalls Ok so I think I have a new favorite show. I caught this friday and I laughed so hard! This is one that I will not miss. Excellent acting and excellent writing 2004-03-15 00:17:00 BOOBIES Yeah so my knee is killing me. Whenever I try and sit on it indian style in my chair it seems to pop out of its slow...i dont know what I'm talking about. It hurts. Sealab 2021 is one of the funniest shows. I found a great info site with transcripts of all the shows here. Also caught 2 eps of Mr. Show. Forgot how funny that show was. I need that on DVD i think... my feet are cold. 2004-03-16 09:16:00 Trying to write happy journal ...entry....ah fuck it. People suck my balls. Why could no one drive today? I am really getting close to just running into people cause I really think they deserve it. And cabbies. Holyfuckingchryst. If there is a news story of someone randomly killing cabbies, its gonna be me. I hate them all. Then i walk in and my cube is innundated by people talking and bitching and yelling. I mean they are all really really loud. And the bitch next to me is talking to me like I'm an idiot now cause I dropped this value out of this table. She fucks up all time, people do that we error, but now I'm getting this condensending bullshit. I need a new job. I want to be Stewie and take over the world. Secret Window was good. Johnny Depp is my god now. 2004-03-19 10:26:00 so angry i can't see. So I think everyone knows my view on religion. I hate it for me. I have my throughts and beliefs and screw you if you think I'm gonna tell you about them. Well maybe if you ask nicely. But organized religion is a crock of shit. Why is it someones job to convert me to the way of their thinking? Why can't I just believe what I want? Yes sure I can say no thank you to the usually hot Mormons who come around and look all cute on theit bikes and stuff and that's fine. I am civil to anyone who wants me to become their religion. But when someone is appointed to a government position such as the Office of Special Council and in the past they have been invloved with the, and I quote "Claremont Institute, an ultra-conservative think tank in California, which boasts of “fighting the gay rights movement” as one of its mottos", then things have gone too far. Read the article i'm going to like, get angry and go out and get a sniper rifle. I can feel the hate deep in me today. Drat. CLICK HERE, READ THIS ARTICLE, BE SCARED 2004-03-19 10:33:00 FUCK BUSH I'm moving to Canada 2004-03-19 12:10:00 SO CUTE I have to say I love channel 4...IN ENGLAND! Check out this link and make sure that you have a fast connection and the speakers are turned low. This is ad that airs on channel 4 after 10 pm. And we can't even say asshole. Why british TV is better 2004-03-19 13:27:00 for those of you from last night... i've been playing with my penis all day. I get bored and start pulling on it. I just need to remember to keep it tucked in. Thank you again :) 2004-03-19 13:32:00 so much for my dreams of being queen of putrescence 
Which Princess Bride Character are You?
this quiz was made by mysti2004-03-20 12:23:00 HELLBOY Saturdays are cool. I woke up to Duck Dogers, a little Teen Titans, then put in the free disc from Best Buy about Hellboy and man this movie is looking better than I could have hoped. That and I am in love with Selma Blair and Ron Perlman. Selma was figiting with her hair during this interview and looking so adorable. I can't wait!!! 2004-03-23 16:24:00 so i drove into work this morning and got back to thinking how beautiful and amazing life is. The fact that we have cars, and huge buildings that support thousands of people, birds, life itself, the differences in people...it's all so amazing. This got me through traffic and it was nice. I also am trying to get away from staring at the floor when I walk. I spend too much time avoiding the eyes of others and the beauty of life. I remember a time were everyday something about this world amazed me and I need to get that back. i need to enjoy the fact that I am here and not worry about the little things. And I also want to say that I am thankful for the friends that I have. You all are great and wonderful to put up with me. :) 2004-03-25 10:02:00 fuck the fcc So i had one of the guys at Starbucks near my house hand me a card today. It was a thank you for being a good customer. The inside of the card reads, "congratulations on being chosen as one of our greatest guests." And then there was a free coupon for a 12 oz drink. Now, i spent many years in retail so I know all about things that the company wants you to do to keep customers happy and the like but still, the guy, whose name I can never remember, got the card, signed it 'Thanks Red', I'm called red there cause everyday I get a venti red-eye, and 'for being a valued customer.' I thought that was really nice. They know I am there everyday and it's nice to be rewarded something and get some ...appreciation...is that the word i want? Made me feel good. Then I got in traffic. But my friend Greg and I had this conversation about great 80s bands and I burned a great Smiths/Berlin/Cure disc and that helped. But then I got into work. And they had no bacon. I am trying to prep to go back on Atkins cause I am fat. (SHADDUP!) So I had to have a bagel. But there was this army guy lazily talking to one of the girls at the cafeteria and their whole conversation was about how looked over they are about this and that and the whole thing got me so peeved. Why is it the ones that do the least are the ones that bitch the loudest about not getting what they deserve? I work my fucking ass off at the office and I finally got my promotion that I deserved and I have the paperwork to prove that I deserved it. But there are so many people in this building and everywhere that say just cause they have been at this office for 5 years or whatever, that they deserve a raise or promotion and you know just by looking at them at the attitude they throw off that they do the least amount of work possible. No one deserves anything. Raising my hand as a hypocrite cause I have had the thoughts as well but i can say with 95% certainty that everything I deserve, i have put the work behind. And think that is a main issue with people and me is that they think that somehow they deserve something for nothing. Arg. fucknut people piss me off. <----- stating the obvious the subject line has nothing to do with anything. i just hate the fcc. 2004-03-25 13:13:00 ever have one of those days where no matter what you do you can't get comfy. I'm alone in my cube but I can't stop figiting. its annoying. no music seems to fit my mood. sigh. lol whinebitchcomplain mmm wine 2004-03-25 13:34:00 oral fixation 101 i have gone through a pack and a half of dentyne ice in little under an hour. mmm 2004-03-26 05:36:00 Time to bring out the restraints. I just drove past american university. Spring is here and I'm scared. 2004-03-26 05:49:00 Still in the car....still going crazy. I need to find another way to get to work that doesn't involve a university, the city of dc or a military base..... Make the restraints as strong as possible 2004-03-26 11:19:00 lick the box i think in my need to find something that I collect, i have come across the fact that I like monkeys and boxes. i remember when i first started smoking i was entranced but the cigarette box. Now i realize that i have altoid boxes and mint tins and various other small things to apparently stick other small things in. My fear is that i will run out of small things to stick in my small tins. 2004-03-26 16:43:00 uh An E Hollywood True Story on Tawny Kitaen? You must be kidding me. All she did look hot on the hood of a car in a Whitesnake video, looked tacky in Bachelor Party and looked just plain dumb in Witchboard. I need to be a star cause my Hollywood true story...well it would be a porno, but it would be good! 2004-03-26 22:04:00 wow, the new Harry Potter trailer is AWESOME! It looks better than imagined! YAY 2004-03-27 00:55:00 Memories So I am sitting here watching Back to the Future on DVD and its just funny when you can remember the exact moment when you were sitting in the theatre and all giddy and the credits roll. It so cool flying back in time since movies were one of the things that my family used to love to do. Back when we still living in San Diego we didn't have a lot of money and the thing that we did was to see movies. Star Wars, Empire, Jedi, Gremlins, Poltergeist, Raiders, Temple of Doom, any James Bond film and anything dealing with Steven Spielberg. Hell I even skipped school to see movies. Good time 2004-03-29 12:05:00 slut so my belated birthday cake last night from my friends had Happy Birthday Slut on it. They somehow got the people at Harris Teeter to do that for me. I'll have to post a pic tomorrow. It made me smile. 2004-03-30 14:46:00 sick I just read a bumper sticker as "my boss is a jewish computer" instead of carpenter. I laughed but man do I feel like shit. Good thing I'm going home now |
