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2003-02-03 08:24:00 T&C Be Over

Well another play is over. Sigh. The Rude Mechanicals have put another play to rest. And it was one of the most successful productions in a very long time. Which is odd cause not everyone knows what Troilus and Cressida is about or who wrote it. I thought that was the funniest thing when I mentioned it to people and they would ask me who wrote it. (It was Shakespeare, btw) But like I said we broke attendance records for show including a 75+ person closing night. We were stunned. But it was a great experience and now it's onto other things.

2003-02-04 08:58:00 my chest hurts

Ow. Ok I think I am finally going to make an appointment to go to the doctor. I have been having chest pains for a over a week now and everyone I talk to says its something called Pleurisy. I have never heard of this bit apparently its rather nasty. The web sites that have information about all this stuff have been scaring the hell outta me cause if you add medical information to anything associated to me I automatically think I'm going to die. But what this feel like is a sharp stabbing pain right about where my heart should be, I assume everyone is under the same association that I truly don't have a heart, and whenever I take a deep breathe or use any of the muscles in my chest it hurts, lotly. Side note, thank god I'm right handed. So I called my doctor on Friday and he said take some ibupre...ibuprofine...Advil and see if that helps cause if it's the viral kind then it will go away in time. If its the bacterial kind then I have to go on the antibiotics and can't drink for a few days. *shiver* So, here we are 10 days later and I still hurt. But my doctor is an idiot. Anyone know any funny doctors? Not necessarily a patch adams kinda thing but someone who has a little fun. Oh a cute would be nice. And young. And single. heheheh

2003-02-05 08:58:00 Worst thing to Call someone:

In my new spirit of anger, I am curious what the worst thing you can call some on is. Please let me know: Some of mine: Shit monkey, dick head, vaginal blood fart, mother fucker - a classic..

2003-02-05 08:56:00

Have I said that my typing sucks and that if any of these journals actually make any sense then it's just a fucking miracle.

2003-02-05 08:55:00 People

Ya know how you get in that mood that you try and make everyone happy but doing whatever they need to make them happy but along the way you realize that you are sacrificing your life and dreams and wants and if you don't snap to it you're going to miss it all? All of sudden I am disgusted with where I am, what I should be doing, some of the friends I have that I should have gotten rid of years ago and this fucking need to make everyone happy. Fuck them. I don’t know what’s coming over me but I seem to be losing the desire to make strangers smile instead I find myself more often wanting to smash their face into the milk ice box at 7-11. Okay that was a bad night but ... arg. I hate this feeling and maybe it's a annoyance at being 31 still not doing the thing that I want to do and not having the money to go out and do what I want. Also because I still worry about offending people if you read this you know me and since all my journals go through the conscious first they are all planned and checked so this doesn't apply to you. If you're a stranger then there is a strong chance I hate you but that means you need to prove me different. Fuck all.

2003-02-05 08:44:00

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2003-02-06 11:05:00

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2003-02-06 11:04:00 Ah

So, I'm better today. I think I was angry and annoyed, well okay obviously I was, but I think it was due to the lack of sleep and the chest pains and stuff. But the doctor I saw today said that it most likely said it was Pleurisy but he said my lungs and heart sounded good so there probably isn't any fluid there, which is good cause then that would be a bad thing. And I have drugs to fix things, some anti-inflammatory prescription stuff. La la la. I also got a prescription for Welbutrin (sp) to get me to finally stop smoking. YAY Also my friend Charlie and I went out to the Kennedy Centre last night and saw this most excellent show (...Hmmm, Bill and Ted callback...odd) called "Stones in his Pockets." Odd title you say? Yes I agree. The short and sweet of it is: this Hollywood movie is filming in this small town in Ireland and these two locals are extras and they talk about how they want to be film stars and stuff. But the fun part is there are only two guys in the cast, one being Bronson Pinchot from Perfect Strangers on TV and Beverley Hill Cop, and they both each play 8 characters or so. Its so funny. It was fun to be at the Kennedy Centre again. I love that place. Sigh.

2003-02-11 08:34:00 Hmmm

Ok the sun was so fucking bright this morning I almost went head on with another car. It wasn't my fault thankfully - the putz in the other lane was going around a bus and didn't bother to look in my lane. I was awake after that. Macbeth auditions went fairly poorly. It was my first audition with a memorized monolog and I couldn't remember my next line twice. Too embarrassed, let me tell you. So I fought through it and get the hell off stage. But it was good to get it out from under my and now when I find a better piece to use and spend more than a week on it I will do better. I hope. I'd say there were 15 or so people there and many of them did really good jobs. I really wish I had chosen a better piece. And a lot of other friends showed up as well: Andra, the cute girl I did the one acts in the summer with, was there, Kim, the girl I was in Ellipsis with, was there, and Ric, the guy I was in Museum with, was there. It was also kinda a Museum reunion since there were two other Museum people there. Overall it was a good experience but I strangely not concerned about getting a role. If I do, I do. Whatever. Can I also say how many beautiful people are walking around DC in the morning. At the stoplights there are all the girls and guys all bundled up and cold and looking so cute. I just want the all to get in my car and warm them up. hehehe.

2003-02-14 09:58:00

sigh

2003-02-18 19:56:00

the snow, its eating my brain. too much shoveling. Really I mean this snow if fun and all but I'm fucking stuck in my house and they still haven't done my street yet so I can't get out. I am so annoyed. All my friends are going out and stuff and I am stuck in the house. Is Dog is my witness I will get out of this house and into my own place. The only fear is that if i were in the city that I would be a complete slut. Again. Heheh. But even to just hang out with people would be a plus. This has been a different three days. But there are no people that I would like to spend that much time with anyway, especially my current roommate. But I digress. In other news, last week were the auditions for Macbeth (to be furthermore known as The Scottish Play or TSP) and the regular auditions I felt like I did a horrible job. I mean I was the only person who forgot a line on stage, it was supposed to be a memorized 1-2 minute monologue, and lets just say that i didn't quite do a good job. Or so I thought. Well I still think I sucked baboon ass but they called me and invite me back for the .... callback. Ya know reading this you would never know I was an English major.... sigh. Anyway, so last Thursday I felt like I did a bad job again! I was so pissed. But then I got a call on Friday and they offered me the role of Malcolm. Of course I said yes cause its going to be a very intriguing show. Apparently there are very few props, if any, and the whole show will be based on the language.

2003-02-25 16:42:00

hehe cool quote. "Going to war without France is like going deer hunting without an accordion." - Donald Rumsfeld"

[Ed note: I have since found out that he didn't say this but I can't recall who actually did]

2003-02-25 09:15:00 YAY

All right, besides all the bullshit going on in my life right now, the one good spot is that they have announced the complete first season of the Charlie’s Angels TV show will be out May 27th. Fucking rocks