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2004-01-03 14:04:00 New Year New Years was a blast. I was more than happy to get rid of 2003 and now i have to try and do all the things I want to do so that I don't make 2004 suck again. I take full responsibility for making last year blow. There were certain things that of course were beyond AIGH I'm watching POLTERGEIST right now and its the clown part near the end and I am all goosebumped out and soon the thing will disappear and reach from under the bed and then i will probably scream. FUCKING CLOWNS where was i....god I love this movie....so things were certainly beyond control but there was a lot that I could have taken care of by actually picking up the phone and calling people to hang out or getting a new fucking job but that's what this year is for. I made my first phone call the other day asking if someone wanted to hang out. I just need to make more. "You son of a bitch, you left the bodies and you only moved the headstones!!!!" Back to focus....So I have plenty of space for ranting. So the eve, I met up with Leland for drinks in the city and we had another great conversation while we waited for Matt who we eventually met at JRs. We has a drink there and then cabbed it to our friend Andy's place over on 10th and ate. Andy has a great place and he had some really nice friends there. I was apparetnly pants'ed and so was Matt. The photos should be to the right. Then I stayed and did the disheds and tried to get out on time but didn't manage to get out till 11:15 and had to get to Laurel by midnight. So i cabbed to my car and said goodbye to Matt and Leland and then raced out of the city. Wait no, no one actually races out of the city...i got stuck in New Years traffic and eventually made it out and drove like an ass to laurel and made it to Burts house by 11:54. That was a blast too. Got to see Lisa, the third original angel, and we had a blast. Picks are again to the right. Over all a great night. 2004-01-03 13:31:00 OPUS is back in the sunday comics! yay 2004-01-05 14:39:00 splat I fucking hate websites that don't update themselves. I went hunting for acting info and two sites I went two had plays listed from over a year ago. If I don’t get back into acting I will go insane and take all of you with me. sigh 2004-01-05 14:59:00,ny," so i'm sitting here thinking about so many things cause i have no work to do and i'm bored of my job and not getting paid for the amount of work i do so all my work ethic will allow me to do is let my mind wander while i try and find something i can do. Random thoughts: I had such a good time on New Years. I, as I am apt to do, am wondering if i said or did anything inappropriate. I was mostly sober so that was a good thing but i realized that I pretty much couldn't stop talking and I was really hyper. I was just so happy to see so many friends that I have know for so long. And getting the angles back together was sweet! Go Go Ghetto Angels! HI DAVE My goal this way, which I have already fucked up, is to call people. The other night I was watching Angels in America and i had to get out and there were selective people that I wanted to be with that could just cheer me up and be there and not realize that they were doing anything. Make sense? But I didn't call them. Instead I went to Remington's and ran into a whole bunch of people that I didn't expect to see. Tangent Man!! But I am going to make a concerted effort to actually call people and hang out and stuff. But my paranoia in this whole mess is that I will me an imposition to these people and their already laid ( I'd like to be laid in a tomb...) plans. So if for some reason I call and plans are already there for something else, tell me you're busy. Okay now I have to shut up cause I feel like I am making myself sound like the Queen of England calling and I'm just not that important. And the above was a small insight into my insanity. I wonder where Jack is? I should spell check this but i don't feel like it. I suck. If i could map out the highs and lows of my depression and sell it to Cedar Point, they would have a fucking great coaster on their hands. Penis, penis, penis, vagina, vagina, vagina 2004-01-07 16:22:00
2004-01-07 16:41:00 Must go to gym. Must go to gym. But not tonight. Does anyone belong to Bally's that goes to one in Pentagon Row or Rockville or somewhere in between? I have got to go to one before my knees get too fucked up. No it's not from being on them all the time but they are causing me pain and I have to strengthen them again and i want to lose weight. AND there is a Office Challenge between like 7 people and whoever gets the most weight off in proportion to what their body type is will get the all the money in the pot and each person has to put in 25 bucks. So i want to get back into my 32s dammit but i need someone to kick my ass to get there. Grr Arg 2004-01-08 10:13:00 country music: still sucks. since i was at Remington’s Saturday and the state of morning radio is D.C. is a phucking joke, i thought i would put on country. maybe I’d like it. answer is no. apparently i must be in a bar surrounded by cute pseudo cowboys and beer to make that shit sound good. (true some ain't bad and the more i listen to it the more I really like it but the crap they had on this morning was dreck) Also I have been having a strange phenomenon happening recently where I am remembering my dreams. This wouldn't be so odd except they are dreams from months ago. The dream I had last night, which of course is gone, had nothing to do with the recollection of the one from about a month and a half ago, also now gone. It was rather odd since i was just so vivid. trying to quit smoking. you know when you breathe and there is a little wheeze, i am taking that as a sign. i plan to fail, or at least throw a leg off the wagon once in a while but I really want to walk up a flight of stairs without getting winded. drank again last night. so far Tuesday was the only night this week, and i thing last week, where alcohol wasn't involved. sigh. 2004-01-08 11:47:00 country drinking, part deux So to clarify my last message a little, I do like classic country esp. Patsy Cline and K.D. and Johnny Cash and Keith Urban and Kenny Chesney and the like. I find the new stuff a little shitty. Drinking: I love it. I think I am being more responsible about it, not that I was really bad, and so a simple beer or three or two apple martini's ain't all that bad. I love to drink. It's so tasty. There was something else I was gonna say...crap. I can't remember. Probably too much drinking. So I'll leave with this: titty fucking. discuss 2004-01-08 15:04:00 THIS DAY IS GOING SO SLOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arg 2004-01-09 12:20:00 I think i took this before but may not have posted it. Taken from nofcna who took it from hotfix _____ <----- puddle of drool
2004-01-09 12:40:00 So like there is this totally hot guy named Jared and his phone number is 555-2488. Dreamy! Ok so that was an inside joke to how pathetic I am. Last night I was just feeling a little crappy with a headache and general tiredness so I decided not to go to Nation so I picked up my friend and went to his office and fixed his computer and then went to Elizabeth's house and we vegged there for a bit. Eventually we went to get gas for her car and cat food. But PetSmart (I am so smart. S M R T. D'oh!) is right next to target and, well, that was a bad thing. I ended up with shave cream, and deodorant and shampoo ... oh and 4 boxes of Red Vines (hi Jack), a Tom Jones CD and GQ with Orlando Bloom on the cover. Tee hee. Oh yeah and then I got the Imperial Shuttle Lego set and Elizabeth got Mystery Date board game. hehe Then we went to safeway bought more girly mags and some champagne and headed back to the house. We then proceeded to play said Mystery Date for a number of hours while drinking champagne and eating chocolate and taking the quizzes in the magazines. One said that I was, and I quote, "Fundamentally Evil." I really liked that. :) I also have to say that the Mystery Date game was silly. It centered around this phone and you had to call boys to get clues and find out who was the one who was going to ask you to the prom. Hence the above mentioned Jared, the cutest boy, who never asked me out to the prom. Bastard. But I did will all the games which is a little disturbing. But I guess being fundamentally evil has it's perks. 2004-01-09 13:09:00 When did Topher Grace get hot? 2004-01-12 11:22:00 Its What TIME! I think alarm clocks should be able to factor in to their programming the inherent stupidity of man. It should sense that night is here and automatically turn on and then I wouldn't be running around the house naked looking for pants and hence be late to work. Just a thought. Go work on that. Weekend was a blast. Friday night went to Dinner at Andy's house with Leland and Matt. I feel like I see Leland more now then when we dated. But like I keep saying it's great to have him and Matt as friends. We had a great dinner. Then I headed over to Queercore (which in queercoredc.com and not queercore.com which is all porn and not good to check while at work) at the Black Cat and had a blast there as well. I spent some time talking to Chief then this one guy, Stephen I think, began to make the Fellowship of the Queers and inviting strangers into the party. There was this hottie joe who joined in and who was an artist. We talked comics for a while. it was supreme odd with punk, alcohol, queers, LOTR and comics. hehehe. Woke up way to early on Saturday and had to drive out of DC back to my house to shower and then to pick up Elizabeth and head over to Matt and Leland’s and meet Doug and Clark and head to the BIG FLEA. This was cool. It was the Dulles / Chantilly convention center filled with people selling stuff. Both buildings!!! We were there like 5 hours. So exhausting. I got a sigh from 1915 that said "Help Wanted: No Irish Need Apply", and cool Coke ad from WWII, an set of 4 unused Hitler Stamps, and a Playboy Lighter. All way cool stuff. I cant wait for the next one. After that we went to Doug and Clarks super sweet house for dinner. Very yummy steaks. :) Sunday was relaxing. Went to my friend Marty's house for a bit and check out this 6 disc CD changer I may use. I dunno. Then we talked and stuff and just relaxed. Went home and overslept for work. hehe 2004-01-13 13:34:00 i burped again. but this time there was no puke. shout out to the three-0. god, i am a such tard. 2004-01-13 15:10:00 crap no drinking tonight have to pick up mom from the airport sigh anyone have a spare couple hundred thousand dollars to get me outta debt so i can get my own place? just curious 2004-01-13 15:18:00 <gross entry> it been a while since i have been on the verge of raging anger. i don't exactly know why i'm at this spot but i'm guessing its a bunch of things that all happened to say hi when the door was cracked open by some else. and i'm going through spam mail and i want to find these people and with my pinky nail dig it into their skin and slowly peel of strips of their skin and feed it back to them. once they get full and can't move take a sledge hammer and break every bone in their body, head being the last. </gross entry> i'm better now 2004-01-14 09:38:00 I bring you peace and love So this morning I was driving down Mass Ave, as I always do on the way to work, and I was feeling the warmth of the sun beat down through my windshield as the cold air surrounded my car. I was in my Starbucks happy place cause all the people there are so nice. There is one girl, Miriam I think is her name, who is so sweet. We always chat and talk about our days. And they had my drink ready before I asked for it. Its like seeing Jay from Tracks/Nations handing me my drinks before I have to ask. So I am heading into Dupont Circle and going around to the right past CVS and getting ready to turn onto Conn or 18th whatever that road is and I check to see what my traffic light is and I have the green arrow. But wait there are people crossing the road on my green. Now that's not right, so I don’t slow down, but really how fast can you go in morning traffic, hehehe, and continue my turn onto whatever road enjoying the scurrying of those fat, rat nosed, mouth breathers dart out of the way of my car. There was one particularly nasty one wearing a brown duster (buttoned open), a white and black thick stripped rugby shirt that was at least one size too small (the rolls, my god the rolls of fat!) and sneakers. I fear for his office mates. :)",public 2004-01-14 10:46:00 oh dear This....can't be good.
2004-01-14 16:08:00 so I saw Empire of the Sun last night on CABLE and I had totally forgotten what a wonderful movie that was. I remember seeing it opening day, as I did with all Spielberg films, and loving it but back when it came out I was 16 and I don't think I was able to appreciate it like I can now. And Christian Bale was truly amazing. I have always loved him as an actor and watching him at 13 doing this movie and carrying it, it was fantastic. Plus there was a very young Ben Stiller in it. I had to laugh. And Miranda Richardson, who long ago should have become my wife. That’s all. Let's see what eBay has..... 2004-01-15 10:03:00 this quiz was made by alanna 2004-01-15 10:39:00 oh fuck me okay, i am not really angry and haven't been the past few days. I just have moments, call them zits of anger, that pop their pus everywhere. But I'm watching CNN at work, the tv is above my desk so i have no choice, and Bush is apparently working on something called a marriage proposal. Where he wants to spend $1.5 BILLION dollars to promote the ideals of traditional marriage. He wants to educate the poor and the toothless on how to effectively hold your beer and hit your wife at the same time. I don't give a shit about marriage cause I don’t' plan on ever doing it. The few women I have wanted are taken and I am to much of a whore to settle down but if same sex couples want to get hitched and deal with all the amazing bullshit that heterosexual couples deal with, no sex after marriage - divorce - and all the crap feel free. But does Bush really have to send the country into the poor house to do it? First we have a war so we can funnel money to Halliburton, then we have this crazy scheme to get someone to Mars and to the moon, and now we have this? Oh and more tax cuts? Where is the money going to come from? I don’t mind paying more taxes for something that will hopefully be beneficial in the end, like the Iraqi Conflict. I am so pissed and amazed that this fucking Texas shit head is sending the US down the toilet. I wanna ass rape him with a cactus. ARG. (water for the flame) yes marriages can work, yes there are plenty of successful people who are happy, no the ideal of marriage to most people isn't just the ceremony, blah blah fucking blah. thpppppppt 2004-01-15 13:22:00 i want flesh 2004-01-15 13:24:00
Inside, it hurts more and more. Like it's filling to the brim. Get some release soon, or, it could get ugly. Your Secret Inner Demon brought to you by Quizilla",public 2004-01-15 16:39:00 mmm david beckham i guess i know where i'll be moving if you know what happens you know when! nudge nudge wink wink eh
Jolly good, wot! Anyone for tennis? That'll be ten ponies, guv. You're the epitome of everything that is english. Yey :) Hoist that Union Jack! How British are you? this quiz was made by alanna 2004-01-16 10:55:00 hmm yeah so last night at Nation on the over all, not a lot of fun. maybe it's because i was angry to begin with when I got there, but the music sucked, the people were annoying - save for my friends, and it was cold. maybe i'm having my period. but there were good points: there was a fight (always fun), great chats with people when they were away from the friend collective, there were some new people I could put faces to names. Why was that fat chick sucking on my finger? I literally used my lighter to disinfect but still felt her presence. *shudder*. So I maybe taking some time off again. I say that now but I may be there next week. Who knows. Maybe I need to shit. Hmmm. Maybe I need to fling poo at people. I like that idea. 2004-01-16 10:58:00 Oh.... If you have the chance, go to bed at 3:30am and then wake up at 7:30am and try and function. It fucking sucks. Have a day. 2004-01-20 14:35:00 i could listen to Annie Lennox sing for the rest of my life and would be so happy. her voice has a power all it's own. second rotation on Bare for the day 2004-01-20 15:58:00
i hate
credit cards. see i was going to begin with a journal entry saying
that life is funny of bunnies cumming rainbows and all but now i am
33 days late on my chase bill cause they didn't send an automatic
payment and i don’t know why. arg. (time passes) ok, now i know why
its it’s a combination of dumb errors. Lets see if they waive the
late fees. (this is so exiting. its like livejournal LIVE! or perhaps
livejournal eXtreme!) John Denver is the musak. Colorado Rocky
Mountain High. Good Song.
Well I'll ramble while I am on hold and break in with the latest
news! Weekend was a blast. Friday was a massive drunk fest. I can
hear my liver gasping still. Had a lunch to go to Friday at noon
for this girl that is leaving to go to another job. 1st drink:
Vodka Tonic - Noon. The party was good and it was teary and sad
to see her leave but it's for the best for her. Then after the
lunch we headed back to the bar and chatted some more. Drink 2:
Vodka tonic, 13:00. Then we headed to the Stardust restaurant
in Old Towne (i think it looks better with the 'e' though I am
not fond of 'Shoppe', that just looks gay) and I got to get a
Stoli Orange and Tonic (here after referred to as SOT) which
was nice cause the Potowmack Restaurant didn't have SO. ANYWHO, Drink 3
and 4 happened between 14:00 and 15:00. Then there was a brief coffee
break around 16:00, had this wonderful concoction around 16:30 that
was a chocolate coffee martini where the coffee soak in vodka for
30 days and then are mixed in a glass with Godiva chocolate liquor
and Kaluha (i cant spell it) but DAMN it was good, getting ready
to leave and my other old boss walks in.
YAY they waived the late fees.
This is never a good thing in regards to anything sober. We have
closed many a bar. He walks in and we end up staying for another
5 hours and all the drinks go to pint glasses. Oi. Notice how I
vague that up a little. I had another like 5 drinks there. Ug.
Then my boss wants to go somewhere and I do as well so we head
downtown and meet at Timberlake’s and i forego my drink but
then we go to The Russia House and I have this really nice real
Russian beer. Soooooo Goooooood. Nice place to. Then back to
timber lakes and one more drink then on the road to head home.
Its now 0300 and I have been drinking for roughly 15 hours.
But I was not drunk, just very very hungry. I stopped in 7-11
and got a package of ham and some potato chips. Eww.
Saturday I met up with Elizabeth and we went to the Phillips
gallery to see the Surrealism and Modernism exhibit. I had
never been to the gallery before but my friend Dave got me
tickets and so I went. We were supposed to see it together
and I was gonna get a walk through with the curator but my
schedule fucked all that up. But i think him for the tickets
anyway. It was a small exhibit but nice. I realized as I
strode through that I hate people in museums. I was apparently
always in their way and there were a lot of people being bitchy
and pompous just cause they could be. arg.
Saturday night went to a birthday party at dont drive angry, dont drive angry its probably not their fault maybe its the policy and maybe i just dont give a fuck. short story: phone had a recall. they sent a new one and i sent the old one back. The new one broke two days later. I called for a new one and it never arrived. Tracking number says they delivered it and I never got it. Now I have to pay $300 for the phone I never got and even if the post office says they lost it, i still have to pay for it and get the post office to pay me. FUCK T-MOBILE i stabed my desk with a fork. i'm so angry i can't see 2004-01-21 11:03:00 Green acres is the place for me. Farm livin' is the life for me. Land spreadin' out so far and wide. Keep Manhattan, just give me that countryside. New York is where I'd rather stay. I get allergic smelling hay. I just adore a penthouse view. Dah-ling I love you but give me Park Avenue. ...The chores. ...The stores. ...Fresh air. ...Times Square You are my wife. Good bye, city life. Green Acres we are there. 2004-01-21 15:01:00 Who's your daddy...
The ‘R18’ category is a special and legally restricted classification primarily for explicit videos of consenting sex between adults. Such videos may be supplied to adults only in licensed sex shops, of which there are currently about 90 in the UK. ‘R18’ videos may not be supplied by mail order. 2004-01-21 17:57:00 I love Dan Savage. I love Dan Savage so much. I have always loved his sex advice column and have just picked up his book "Skipping Towards Gomorrah" and I can't put it down. I am sneaking passages while I try and get some work done. He writes with such smoothness and readability. And he's hot. I'm only on page 21 but I am in love. Will report more as I progress..." 2004-01-22 10:48:00 Harvey The Place: Freddies. The Drink: Apple Martini The Time: Wednesday, 2200 hours As usual E and I headed to Freddies last night and had our usual nice time. And as usual someone thought we were a couple. We laughed. It was pretty crowded and comfy, it nice cause it's not all meat markety. As we got there this one gentleman sat next to E and drank his cokes and you could tell that he was listening to our conversation and trying to get in. Eventually he did and we had nice chats for the rest of the night. His name was Warren, a name I strangely love, and was cute. Wore a baseball hat so I assume some degree of hair loss (but who isn't - sigh), nice goat and beautiful eyes. The three of us just had a really nice relaxing chat. I miss Harvey. He is a friend that I don't talk to now for various reasons. So if he's reading this: Hi. I have this rant in me that I can't seem to get down. I'll have to do it in Word or something but it's all about gay things and straight things and fag hags and prejudice and self loathing. Thought I would prep y'all." 2004-01-23 10:41:00 Have you ever been driving and needed a new racial slur to yell at someone? Have you ever been called a name and you knew you should be offended but didn't know what it meant? Are you just a sick bastard like me who giggles at inappropriate shit? Then you have got to check this out. Yes its the Racial Slur Database. Just when I thought the Roller Coaster Database was the best thing on the plant. (and porn) Bog Jumper Pinky Poop Cocoon Coontang I could go on and on. Check it out. Laugh. If you get offended your a dick 2004-01-23 13:40:00 Billy Corgen, Smashing Pumpkins Homer Simpson, smiling politely 2004-01-27 12:28:00 R3 So I just want to say again that I really enjoyed seeing Richard the 3rd this weekend. Calvin really blew me away. I admit I was curious if he could pull it off but he did and did well. The scene with the murderers and Clarence was wonderful as well. So many good parts. It was a very solid show and people in the audience really seemed to be enjoying themselves. I like to watch people. It was also nice to see so many new faces in the RMs. Very good show. This has taken me a half hour to write cause people keep talking to me! I need a door. "I need a face, I need a face..*splort*...HELLO!" 2004-01-27 16:12:00 i'm watching a cartoon with all these cute cherubic nuns. thats all. 2004-01-27 21:42:00 Boobies! Holy sweet christ i love The Family Guy 2004-01-29 10:49:00
2004-01-29 13:55:00 Hurm I would like...I would like...I would like a trip to Europe... I would like, for an extended period of time, to actually like myself. Now, this may come across sounding egotistical, sounds like testicle, but some of the time I actually think that I am a humorous, intelligent, handsome, giving kinda guy. Honest, it happens. Other times I can't stand anything about me and want to take a hammer to every mirror or pane of glass I see. You can guess which side wins out most of the time. But I was talking to someone the other day, who shall remain nameless only because I can't remember who it was (its been a bad two days at work), and just the insanity of how much time people spend wish they were something else than what they are and in doing do totally lose sight of themselves. I know so many people who don't appreciate who they are and the wonderful being they are. Sure someone may not have as much hair as they want, might not be as tall as they want, not be as thin as they want but all that should be just short term stuff. We are all such amazing beings and here for such a short amount of time that it's sad that I/we am/are wasting so much of life on wants. I'm trying to get over it to the degree I can and sure I want more hair and want to look more like Rafael (that sound would be my mouth hitting the floor) but it aint going to happen. Ever. And ... I'm spent. 2004-01-29 14:08:00 i wonder what it would be like to actually cum rainbows. Would they fade away? How would you clean them up? 2004-01-30 09:21:00 Smallville God i am such a WB whore. Why do all the shows suck me in? Am i really that much of a 13 year old girl? I love smallville, angel, everwood, gilmore girls, charmed. just so much fun. And i am still waiting for my super powers to take hold. My dream when i was a kid was to be able to stop time and then i could touch people on the shoulder and they would be in love with me and I could "do" them and then move onto someone else until i had sex with every (pretty) preson in the world. I had this dream when I was like 12. |
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